shah alam

i spending my weekend kat shah alam dis week...luckyly kak iela was here 2...klo x surely aku boring...spent the wholeday by watching tv...n read mingguan wanita(mak ngah punye kot)...noe wat, so many things i learnt from the book...haha...sape je x tau masalah2 yg ade dlm magazine 2 :P...sape2 yg x saba nk kawen 2...better start bli the book n read it...menjamin ur healthy,relationship(husband) n mase depan!!!haha

lately...aku mengalami masalah duit yg ketare...actually of coz dr sumber pendapatan family kan...x saba dh waiting mama n papa get a new bisnez...i dont mind wheather dpt a new kantin or papa get a new kontrak...im really2 sedey when adik told me bout how down nye our family rite now...hm 2 blom lg when the school hols tibe...pergh!!!

kamis ni mayb mama trun kl...sbb i asked mama to talk to finance...cube naseb...at least cube...bukan ape...ksian mama gak klo2 kne byr smpi rm2000...adoih...mane nk cekau duit...arap2 lpas la registration subjek aku...hm aminnn....doa2kan yek...neway lastly...hepy becoming bifday zue!!! on 30/6 tonite, muachhz!!!

k la...

wanna stop here...

* i luv my mama*

* luv my papa*

* i miz eisya to hear my bebel*

* i miz kak huda to teman me cry*

* n i really2 miz afiq*

nite!!!

bp-kl

---> arrived at 5pm
---> exhauseted n sleepy
---> start wat assignment at 6 but until this time(10.24), br siap wat outline keybod je
---> laz nite:
mama said"pas ni kakak jgn slalu2 blek.juz stay at kak long noni's house in gombak.syg
duit if every weeks kakak blek.kete jage bek2 n jimat2 duit."
--->juz now :-
eisya : rindu sgt kat ko...
saye : aku rindu gak kat ko
ari2 aku itung ari...
itung mnggu...
itung bulan tggu ko blek...
( ym is the bez way to hide up our tears)
---> chating ngn adib 4 about 18 line je.bru nk bebel2 :p then ilang.sudah klua minum la 2.npe
adib 2 bukan afiq!!!
--->my space dah*frenster dah*blogger dah(pergh shaleen's blog kaw2)
---> continue wat esemen pliz...keybod-top view-skala-anthropometric...ar matrix reload aku
tau ...:P
---> ain sile bangun buat kje...b4 i ask the kje towake u up

*still waiting the day juz click "send" a msg 4 u syg.argh!!!!*

T_T

how it feels like to be alone...?
aku rase sunyi yg amat sgt...
sya tiada...
afiq tiada...
adik tiada...
hm tiade tempat tok dikongsi crite...
x de tempat tok bemsg...
x de tempat tok mengadu...
x de tempat tok begado...
bile sunyi cani...
rase rindu plak nk nk begado ngn sum1...
hihih
but the past is past...
x turning back...
yg aku bole wat skang ni..
kuatkan semangat...
hm aku menghadapi masalah tok register cos...
kne bar lg...
ntah ape result aku pn xtau
dh la die nk 2 ribu...
haih...mmu...mmu
k la...
aku mau pi ptptn tye bile duit aku bole masuk...
at least dpt cover skit utang aku kat mmu yg tetunggak2 tu...
bye...

*yg sedey....- ella*

mabuk...

telah aku lihat...
telah aku bayangkan...
telah aku fike...
telah aku telaah...
nmpknye film...
lagu2...
drama2 apa lagi yg aku harus donlod...
hey!!!
inila gaye seorang budak fcm...
tiada kesadaran...langsung ilang akal nya...
budak cos len tonggeng2 seminggu x tido study...
manakale fcmers ato lebe hampir pangiilanye farmers yg membawe masod belainan maseh berhayalan di corong2 telivesen maupon radio....
myspace?
frenster?
blogger?
winamp?
torrent dgn lebe tepat...
pada mreka ini sgale final esemen dan final presentation hasil keje2 creative yg x bape hebatnye(lg2 driku:p) lebe penting atopon tepatnye bagaikan exam bg sgala2nye...
krane itu fcmers behabis 5 jam saje dlm semnggu toh merehatkan mate...
oleh itu jika anda adelah talented punye org seni...
dialu2kan mengambil cos ini krane x memelukan penghapalan otak yg ketare...
apa itu sepeti biologi?
kimia?
fizik?
psikologi?
ar sudah ketare...
sapa kau?
ahli muzik?
ahli sihir?
ahli mjlis?
semue tidak!!!
aku ahli fikir!!!
samseng.samseng.samseng.samseng...
gila sudah ini budak...:p
sengah jam yg lepas aku memulakan pengembaraan bru lg...
apa dia?
o jamuan megi goreng yg amper pcah gegendang prutku...
pegi menagih instant mee di ruang grobok ekin...
seblom pemergian...
aku dijamu kek coklat yg meleleh-leleh coklatnya?
o tidak.!!!
meleleh-leleh air liur nya!!!
haha
apakah?
haruskah?
sunat kah?
makruh bole nggak?
hm kate sopannye puase....
harus2...
sunat2...
sambil diet.sambil ganti puase.
hm sudah...saye kehilangan ayat untuk mrepek2...
ayat2 diatas dilarang bace dlm keadaan mengong...
krane ayat2 nye sudah menunjukakn bengong itu kuasenye...
ahir kate...
saye melihat bunge2 skang sudah berkembang...
bunga kah?
lambangan seorang perempuan...
eisya,jaja,pai,shalin...
ah...
aku slalu ketinggalan di blakang...
orang sudah gembira...
aku baru mula'in...
orang mulain sedey aku bru dan maseh gembira...
dan kini org mulain gembira kembali...
aku sudah tonggeng2 brangan seorang dri...
hamper 3 bulan kehilangan kate2 kesayangan...
mau kucing itu bole becakap sudah tentu aku dipanggilnye sayang...
sudah!!!
kate2 ku x bole dikira pki...
hancus2!!!

sunday evening

-erghk!!!!
-ar ko...kenyang!!!
-sedawe wat kali ke-3
-juz came back from alamanda...
-3 of us(me,eisya n madihaha)
-we walked along the mall dgn laju2...
-lapa!lapa!lapa!!!
-"bbq honey chic rice-2, stewed 1.tq"
-makan dgn laju2...
-then...changed 2 another table...
-"hm choc-a-nut the belgian 1 pliz.tq"
-*mcD*
-"a large of chic porridge pliz.tq"
-ha kau!!!!
-mampos gmuk!!!
-x!!!
-"ella,kite ni cam mabuk cinte plak makan bnyk2.x tau idup mcm org tgh tonggeng2 frust"
-:p
-haha...

*i have 1 paper more 2 go...dis thurs will be my laz day of gamma year...huhu.now tgh pning2 thinking of how im gonna to kemas my room.x tau from which part,which sudut i have to start.mcm x de prasaan je nk cuti.tp prasaan nk blek 2 of cos.wanna meet my best frends2(gile ramai).hm pai,awin.lala.zu.wanna ronggeng2.poye2.haha.earlier hols.mcm2 plan dh de.26-29 plan to jb.3rd jun plan to perak.maklumla,status skang ni (its complicated)dh kne gantung x betali.so no1/nobody will ask me"syg ari ni wat ape?pi mane?next week?dis week?hols ni cane?"argh!!!!
bole gile klo pk.n mama ngn papa x de hal.aku bukak mulut je mau pi mane.sume ha'a asalkan duit ade.mayb drang ksian lg kot ngn keadaan aku.hehe.gle ksian ayat.hm its ok.i can control myself now.even sumtimes ade tears yg aku x leh nk control 2 klua gak.but im still OK.bole hepy2 gle2 lagi :P...actually ade mende/bnyk mende tht i want to write here...or maybe cite kat sumbody.but its hard 4 me to tell.i donno whether im a secreto or the story i want to tell is so complicated.aku sendri bingung.x pe la...nnt aku wat novel or story telling kot.heeee:D
skang ni tgh mabuk edit2 my pics smule.know wat...aku bru scan me n afiq's pics mase tgh hepy2 dlu.hehe.i'll upload later kat blog ni je.nk upload kat frenster dh x kne gaye.kat myspace?hm maybe kot tp tepakse la aku wat private album nnt*

* watever people said bout me or us. i dont care.cause i know tht u knew me much better*

- bole blah la ngn org yg ckap aku sombong 2.aku x padan la ngn afiq 2 sbb gini2 gitu2.pegi
mampos.u're nobody.u're outsiders.aku bukan jenis pompuan yg ske2 nk bek ngn lelaki.ske2
nk gdik ngn lelaki.ckap pon men larung.tbe2 nk ckap aku sombong.hih!!!!!bengang gile ni!!!!

chow!!!!

T_T

saye nangis ari ni...

saye nangis lame2...

saye nangis kuat2...

saye nangis puas2...

.......FULL STOP

poems...

1 of my frend gave these while im in sadness ...

if u love someone...

just let it go.

if he/she return to u...

it means, he/she is urs.

but if it didn't happened...

it'll never be urs

another poem:

If one day u feel like crying, call me.

i don't promise that i will make u laugh, but i can cry with u.

If one day u want to run away, don't be afraid to call me.

i don't promise to ask u to stop, but i can run with u.

If one day u don't want to listen to anyone, call me.

i promise to be there for u and i promise to be quiet.

But if one day u call, and there is no answer, come fast to see me.

perhaps i need u....

i can stand with feet, but i can't stand with u.

i can't live without oxygen, but u are my oxygen.

i can love u, but can't hate u.

i love with soul, but u are my soul....

digubah dan diadaptasi oleh *adib*

sedey!!!

kak huda (4/25/2007 12:10:37 AM): da blik?
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:10:37 AM): :)
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:10:38 AM): hehehehehehe
ella (4/25/2007 12:10:59 AM): ha'a
ella (4/25/2007 12:11:04 AM): td ella nmpk jaja kua ek
ella (4/25/2007 12:11:07 AM): sorang je?
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:11:08 AM): aah
ella (4/25/2007 12:11:09 AM): *ke
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:11:10 AM): ngn adi
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:11:29 AM): dia g amik ade kot kt ostel
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:11:30 AM): :((
ella (4/25/2007 12:12:40 AM): oooo
ella (4/25/2007 12:12:42 AM): :P
ella (4/25/2007 12:12:46 AM): bez nye
ella (4/25/2007 12:12:48 AM): :((
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:12:52 AM): npe?
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:12:55 AM): alalalala...
ella (4/25/2007 12:13:52 AM): jeles!!!
ella (4/25/2007 12:13:56 AM): tdkan kak huda
ella (4/25/2007 12:14:17 AM): kwn adik 2 celebra8 bifday bf die
ella (4/25/2007 12:14:20 AM): suprise gle
ella (4/25/2007 12:14:34 AM): pas2 kan drang acting sebiji cam ella ngn afiq dlu
ella (4/25/2007 12:14:36 AM): :((
ella (4/25/2007 12:14:40 AM): sedey kak huda
ella (4/25/2007 12:14:42 AM): sedey!!!
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:14:57 AM): la...
ella (4/25/2007 12:14:57 AM): doa ek 1 ari nnt afiq brubah then kite bek smule
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:15:03 AM): aminn...
ella (4/25/2007 12:15:08 AM): ella nk smbut bifday die september nnt
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:15:14 AM): iAllah
ella (4/25/2007 12:15:16 AM): nk wat suprise cam2 gak
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:15:21 AM): iAllah
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:15:24 AM): bole tu
ella (4/25/2007 12:15:52 AM): amin!!!!

poem?

poem ni i picked from sum1 status kat ym....
sori bob:P
saje nk share2...
huhu

seseorang yg kite pk adalah milik kita...
ternyata bukan benar2 milik kita...
kita memiliki hatinya...
tubuhnye dan cintanye...
tetapi...
tidak pernah memiliki jalan hidupnye...

klcc

hoho
lupe mau btau ahirnya hari 2 aku bejye smpi juge di klcc setlah berkepingin ke sane...
actually mule2 pi mid saje mau jalan2/window shopping...
tp sempat gak aku amek selai baju kat zara....
pas2 bru teingt i got an mng baju yg blom dipakai lg...:P
hehe...
on the way klua mid i gived a called to ema ajak klua...
skali x bley sbb die kne masuk blek b4 10.30...
hehe. lupe ipta:P...ske ati aku je
laz2 kami decide pi klcc...
saje jalan2 cuci mate tgk pemandangan...
lgpn ari2 lg aku dh kempunan mau ke sane...
but ktorg juz pi sane sambil jalan sambil snap gamba...
then bought a glass of cream choc cips kat starbuck n blek...
on our way jalan ke kete ade la 2 org lelaki ni toleh2...
wat x tau sudah.
bile smpi kete aku cam knel je kete yg paking depan aku ni.
i called mail then upenye the 2 guys yg toleh2 tgk2 tu upenye die...
haha
aiyak malunye...
dh la tgh posing2 gambo mase die lalu tu...
seb bek glap...
so we cannot nampak each other...:P

dedicated to dearest frends...

Satu hari CINTA & KAWAN berjalan dalam kampung...
Tiba-tiba CINTA terjatuh dalam telaga...
Kenapa??
Kerana CINTA itu buta..
Lalu KAWAN pun ikut terjun dalam telaga...
Kenapa??
Kerana...
KAWAN akan buat apa sahaja demi CINTA !!
Di dalam telaga CINTA hilang...
Kenapa??
Kerana...
CINTA itu halus, mudah hilang kalau tak dijaga, sukar dicari apatah lagi dalam telaga yang gelap...
Sedangkan KAWAN masih lagi tercari-cari dimana CINTA & terus menunggu..
Kenapa??
Kerana...
KAWAN itu sejati & akan kekal sebagai KAWAN yang setia...
Walau kita punyacouple,teman still paling setia.
Walau kita punya harta banyak,teman still paling berharga.
Sayang awak sume!!
frenz never break............

hapus aku - by nidji

saye tgh gile.mabuk lagu ini...!!!

Kutuliskan kesedihan
Semua tak bisa kau ungkapkan
Dan kita kan bicara dengan hatiku

Buang semua puisi
Antara kita berdua
Kau bunuh dia sesuatu
Yang kusebut itu cinta

Reff:
Yakinkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku?

Sadarkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku?

18 april -----> 21st me

hepy bifday ella...

wish all ur dreams cum true...

hm bnyk 2 pe yg aku ajatkan...

hehe.

neway...

afiq b the 1st one yg wish my bifday...

terharu.sedey kot...

buat petame kalinye aku rase die seorg yg concern n alert plak...

msti die countdown kan nk wish aku.haha

walopon ia kebetulan tp aku nk prasan gak yg die mmg kire mase wish aku

:P erk...

wat petame kali gakla aku rase cam dihargai...

hehe...

btw...

thnx a lot 2 all my dearest frends yg wish...

eisya.kak huda.jaja.wani.

pai.zue.awin.lala.

shaleen.adik.sofi

shah.aini n bnyk lg...

hm kalo ade name sesape yg tecicir

ya maaf permisi

specially thnx n thnx again 2 eisya n kak huda 4 celebr8 my bif dgn bought a slice of choc indulgence

a slice is like a thousand luv 4 me...

n a slice of thousand thnx from me...

dis year present aku nk bli sesotu tok dri ku sendri...

sumthing tht i wish to bli a few months ago

tok aku smpn smpi mati...

klo dpt yg emas putih lg bgs...

muahahaha

close my eyes...

pray...

*smoge mama papa sht slalu*

*smoge mama papa sentiase dibukakan pintu rezki*

*smoge afiq brubah dan disyangi sume*

*smoge murah rezki afiq tok meneruskan plajarannye*

*smoge sentiase permudahkan pejalanan ku ini di jalan Mu*

*kuatkan semangat ku ini dlm meneruskan pelajaran*

*teguhkan keimanan ku ini dlm menempuh dugaan dan cabaran Mu*

*Amin...*

*selamat hari jadi ella*

-tiveism

keblakangan ni saye seorang:

-kuat bebel

-kuat mara

-sensitive

-bnyk cakap

-mulut jahat

-emo je

-kuat majuk

-kuat nangis

*those r mine.adoih...x tau la pe yg jd.gle -tive prangai.x pe.temporarily sahaje*

p/s: to shaleen

saye punye bifday 18 april...

mlm ni tau....

x kesala ayat yg shaleen postkan 2 tujukan tok sape pon.

tp aku nk perasan gak yg shaleen post 2 tok aku...

huahahaha...

muke x malu punye ella..:P

myspace jahat...

page aku kne hacked.

post comment yg "gatal2"

smpi org perli2

mara2 kot

ckap aku maki2 drang

eh helo....

pk skit beb

mcm x tau je internet ni cam s***

mcm aku gatal sgt nk tulis bukan2

gle desperate!!!

hampeh!!!

hantu btol!!!

lazly...

saye nk pi klcc!!!

jeles same gamba ema n mail!!!

x de afiq pn x pe la...

tp nk pi n amek gamba bnyk2!!!

im...

what i've done...

what've happened...

i wanna end up all of these...

its really hurt...

n im exhausted...

:((

love / hate

Cintailah orang yang kamu kasihi sekadarnya sahaja...

kerana boleh jadi di suatu saat nanti...

ia akan menjadi orang yang kamu benci...

Bencilah orang yang tidak kamu sukai sekadarnya sahaja...

kerana boleh jadi di suatu saat nanti...

ia akan menjadi orang yang kamu cintai...

*there's no 1 i really hate of...

*but there's 1 i really love of...

*will the 1 i really love will be my nitemare?

*or it juz a memory...

sigh...

emmm

1st...
aku bru smpi mmu pd pg td kol 5 lebe stlah menghabiskan weekend bebakti pade skola bakti di tasek gelugor pulau pinang...
letey yg amat sgt krane x mase terluang disane...
mase yg sunggo pack skali...
the nite ktorg blek pon juz sempat makan besar je...
siap singgah grai ikan bakar which is ade banting there tulis "AFUNDI ASWAD"
gle r...!!!

2nd...
aku bantai tido ari ni kaw2...
bgn pkul 2 hanye untok mandi,makan,dobi,mencuci,tgk af laz week...
then tumbang smule...
pkul b sengah kot br bgn...

3rd...
call afiq...
after hampir 3 weeks kami x bercontact...
honestly our status now is very complicated n undefined...:
i called him 2 comform kan interview die...
his bus,his time,n tmpt die stay...
malu siot...!!!
aku lg...
guess wht?
sad ending...
i was crying again...
depan kak huda plak 2...
malu...:p

4th...
decision...
sok die call juz tros amek...
otherwise wat dek je la...
malu la...
kite ikhlasly nk tolong...
wat bek...
tp mcm x sudi...
x dihargai...
hmmm...

{surrender...}

p/s: 2 be continued...mane tau skali tbe2 sok aku ade cte len plak...:P

2:56 in the morning

its hamper 3 o'clock in the morning oredy...
tp 1 hape pon x masuk lg dlm otak ni...
sok ptg ade midterm...
in the morning aku nk pi teman eisya wat paspot singapore/intenational die...
lps aku plak...
maklumla aku ske je jalan2 ni...
bape ari ni idup aku gembire je...
smpi ade beberape org dh tego...
alhamdulillah la...
jgn smpi at the end nnt sumthing bad happen sudah...
did i missing sum1?
or any1...
haih...
mama...
kakak nk blek...
sgt2...
tp takot sgt...
x tau la nk blek bedepan ngn sume cane...
ella malu kot ngn mama papa...
dan x slese nk bejmp ngn afiq...
haih...
perlukah nnt blek scare rasie...:P
k la nk tido...
o nk guling2 atas tilam smbl ngadap buku...
or the buku ngadap me...
haha
nite mama.papa.adik.cimbam.kak tin.afiq
luv u all n miz u all too much...
muuaaaccchzz!!!!

slase nite

selamat malam...

dh 2 ari ni badan x bape sihat...

im sick of...

hehe

not dis life...

not luv...

but nk demam!!!

even blom btol2 demam...

tp kepale aku dh miong2...

mate panas2...

idung selseme ngade2...

tekak gatal2 batok je....

bnyk sgt minum ice kot...

or demam rindu...?

huhu

nk tido la...

ngntok dh slps pekene pil demam kak siti seblah

assalamualaikum...

gud nite again...

luv mama...papa...adik...boboy...fatin...afiq...

p/s: penulisan yg agak mengarut...

tp lahir dr ati...:p

survey3

1. Have you ever been searched by the cops?
= nope.x masal.

2. Do you close your eyes on roller coaster?
= im a coward but bez gle.hihi

3. When's the last time you've beensledding?
= hm...

4. Would you rather sleep with someoneelse, or alone?
= sum1 else...saye ni pnakut

5. Do you believe in ghosts?
= yup tp x nak jmp!!!

6. Do you consider yourself creative?
= undefined

7. Do you think O.J. killed his wife?
= wth

8. Jennifer Aniston or Angelina Jolie?
= keira knightly

9. Can you honestly say you knowANYTHING about politics?
= x really

10. Do you know how to play poker?
= nope

11. Have you ever been awake for 48hours straight?
= yup...usually klo ade final esemen

12. What's your favorite commercial?
= knape? x pecaye ek?

13. Who was your first love?
= my afiq

14. If you're driving in the middle ofthe night, and no one is around you, doyou run a red light? = yup bantai je.

15. Do you have a secret that no oneknows but you?
= mayb

16. Boston Red Sox or New York Yankees?
= neither

17. Have you ever been Ice Skating?
= juz tgk2 org men je

18. How often do you remember your dreams?
= x sampai 1 jam

19. What's the one thing on your mind?
= sad

20. Do you always wear your seat belt?
= not really

21. What talent do you wish you had?
= donno

22. Do you like Sushi?
= tuna n salad only

23. What do you wear to bed?
= socks

24. Do you truly hate anyone?
= nope. im heartless:p

25. If you could sleep with one famousperson, who would it be?
= orlando bloom bole?hehe

26. Do you know anyone in jail?
= nope

27. What food do you find disgusting?
= snake.bluek!!!

28. Have you ever made fun of yourfriends behind their back?
= ?

29. Have you ever been punched in the face?
= nope

30. Do you believe in angels and demons?
= in terms of? im muslim kotttt