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Atau jelmaan Titik kenangan

Yang bernama pengalaman

Siapakah di antara kita

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Ada ketika terbawa-bawa

Oleh resah mimpi yang tak sudah

morning..cuace pg ni sunggo cerah...ato mendung ke...ar x sure la...tp se tenang je tgk cuace ari ni...act aku dh bgn pg2 kol 7 lebe...tu pon setlah aku dgr bunyi letupan buzz oleh deng di corong speaker aku...bgn larung semayang subo gak...then tetido blek...:P
(...ops...ha!!!ujan plak dh...lebat kot...beznye dpt men ujan...aduih...rindu mau men ujan...)

bajet bgn awal nk wat esemen...tp x bole tahan gak...ahirnye aku smbng tido hingge ke pkul 9...ku lihat ym list ramai yg idle...pasti sume sedang menikmati slide di class masing2...skang ni dgn diselaputi bau2an rejoice aku membina semangat tok meneruskan esemen aku dan task2 klinik spm...
(lately...aku mengalami masalh letey,kuat tido,pemalas yg amat,wat else...so esemen2 ngn study aku ade skit teganggu)

semalam...
ok cte sal semalam...cume tnggl x dapat hajah je...aku menawaf sekitar damansara tu maunye lebe 8 kali...so lpas ni mmg aku arif gile la kot segale ape jenis damnsara...aku pi ngn nad mencari skola kota damansara untuk klinik spm 2...mmg la aku blur gak orgnye...tp disebabkan lebe bnyk pot pet pot pet...pung pang pung pang... mmg la jawapan nye kje tebabas dan sesat...
dr a-z nad meluahkan segale ape...cop...klo tipu die,tipu la aku k...ape yg dicritekan 2 bio la aku smpn je...ape yg patot je aku cte...bukan ape...aku sendri x tau mende 2 btol x...
lebe bek simpan sendri...malas nk cri pasal...but in another situation...aku x tau la klo2 ape yg dicite2-cite tu hanye untuk kesaikosan...tp smlm mood aku x bape bek..x tau la disebabkan cte2 nad tu ke...or sbb aku keletihan yg amat sgt...dgn tensennye x wat2 esemen lg...so yg jd mangsenye deng la...sedas kne ngn aku...haih...saba je la mamat 2 dgn aku...asik kje kne je dgn aku
(aik...ujan menjadi grimis plak dh...tp cuace amatnye glap)

act...skang ni i have to go to bank...mau byr duit trip class vr rm250...then byr fees...tp ujan plak...then...aku nk ajak org teman aku pi ni...:P...haih...klo la ade sya...sume bole je punye...heee:D...blek cpat weh...rindu gile ni...

- pending:
* my shin goon from eisya...
*a red bag from FILA
*an eskrim of baskin robin fron deng...haha

chow...continue doing my work...;)

dh semnggu kot x update blog ni...gambo2 kat redang pon x upload abes lg...hm, bez kot redang...sweet memory...hoho.snorkeling bez!!!tekapai2 itik aku brenang...haha.pas2....umah kak eyna...pergh!!!papa!!! mama!!! mmg umah kak eyna tu umah idaman mu...gile cantik...besa...argh mcm2 bez la...

even i have a week holiday....but aku cume ade di parit raje tuk beberape ari saje...sempat la gak klua minum ngn arif, zack, azie...n noe wat...cam bese...aku mmg x leh kat bp tu lame2...mcm2 x kne...i miz afiq kot...:(...i noe its him on the phone...

mnggu ni adelah mnggu bingung bg aku...ari sabtu je aku smpi serdang aku dh dibingungkan dgn deng n abg sab...nk cte kat sini pon ssh...gile pning aku dikejekan dak 2 tu...
smpi la saat ini aku maseh bingung ngn keadaan alam sekitar...esemen lg...waduh2....dh x leh sonok2 sgt dh ella...blaja2...esemen2...hoho

ops...10.54 dh... i have to go...ade meeting gempar hicom...i donno sbb ape...but i feel like x sedap ati kot...lg2 skang ni hicom2 sedang mengalami masalah/kontrovesi kot.haha...

eh dh...2 be continue...udah lambat...chow...

*..."ella ko jeles ek?"...*
*..."klo ko 2 bf aku x pe gak nk jeles"...*
*ain la ni punye ayat smpi **** tye catu*
sigh....

redang

i'll go to redang island tonite at 11 o'clock for sek@mmu hicom binding camp...

yeay!!!!

hepy holiday!!!

??? 2

knew him have to go n9...

tomorrow act...

nape nk sedey?

hm ntahla...

even sumtimes i didn't care bout him nemore...

but...

????

ntahla..

speechless...

nk tulis pn xtau dh...

perlu ke sedey2 ni?

ntah die ingt...

or die care bout me lg ntah x....

eh perlu ke pk die lg...

haih...

do stop...

stop from thinking of him...

ella yg surender...

ella yg plih jalan senyap...

so ella kne kuat...

*had a stomachache*

*gile saket kot*

???

cane r kite suke sum1 tu...

tp bukan suke tuk becinte ke...

rindu ke...

sayang ke...

or special...

tp sbb kite slese die ade...

wat kite hepy...

wat kite lupe mende2 tensen...

mende2 sedey...

n bile die xde...

kite cri...

hm...

tp masalhnye org x faham...

org slah faham...

dan aku malula...:P

dan paling takut...

klo2 die tu org punye...

tp kite nk kawan je...

kawan jer...

a very good magrib...rushing cuci2 baju basah semlam then bru teringt...i didn't pray for asar yet...heh bingai ni...saye period la...hehe.now, i'm feel so bored coz im alone in this room...but lucky eisya is still on9...at least i got frend to bebel 2...ain went out wif aezy n huda i donno wheter she will blek mmu or not...

30 minutes ago i came back from serdang coz i park my car at hentian serdang...when i arrived there...my family already waiting for me...then we went to ipb cheras coz anta adik register as a new student there...dekat sane...we met sofi...hoho...ni lg sorang adik, i already didn't meet him for a long2 time...eh ye ke...se cam 2/3 weeks ago je plak...:P...forgot 2 ask him whether mak n abah siht x? hm afiq too....

btw, adik told me...mak n abah said afiq 2 sedang "misteri"...went adik went to his house, all the barang afiq already packed in his beg but no 1 know where he wanna go...but i think tht sofi knew it...n i was thinking to juz ignore it...its better n more2 better aku x amek tau hal die lg like i did b4...n i wish not to see him again buat mase ni...correction...not bcoz of i hate him or sumthing -tive...but i need peace skang ni...i dont wanna have a crazy mind again...exhausted...

for the time being...i njoy wif my life here...even im quite bz wif those assignments n hampir every nite i had to attend meeting...but im happy...at least aku x rase asik nak blek n miss "him".yesterday...i went to sg chongkak coz ade ice breaking for freshiers there...hoho...pnat gile wooo...coz smlm when the treasure hunt started...ujan trun dgn lebat yg amat sangat...n my task was to jage check point spider wet" which is i have to dudok je dlm sg 2 wif deng n miff...pergh gile kaw2 sejuk...mcm air kat cameron dh...n the air sunggo deras so we planed other obstacle for them...mase 2...ha!!!while we tggu other grups dtg...we sat on the big rock near the sg....n i get shocked tbe2 nmpk sumthing "menjalar" rite beside me...skali ular n aku jerit kuat la "ular!!!!" then 3-3 of us jumped tros ke tebing...wohhh...even the snake looked small but ia sgt panjang...lpas 2 ular 2 ilang trus dlm sg...eiy!!!! fobia2....is it the sign of my mimpi...dh twice aku mimpi ade ular dtg n laz week aku mimpi ular 2 dtg lg n bite me...arghhh takutnye...aneway...programme sek@mmu tu sgt njoy...all of the commitees sgt la bek n their cooperations are highly appreciated...i have sumthing to tell here too...but i donno how to write, how to story, or how to express my feeling here...sbb saye malu...:P hehe.

anyway...sumthing sure here "ingt ella, jgn prasan lebe2" haha...

aku tgh CONFIUS ni
i need a decision here...
blek/tidak?
blek/ tidak?
arrr....mumyyyy!!!!

*HEPY BIFDAY KAK SHA*

*MOGE PANJANG UMO*MURAH REZEKI*CPAT2 KAWEN*

Horoscope for July 21, 2007

Aries (Mar 21 - Apr 19)

Can you hear your inner engine revving up? You're raring to go, and today is a perfect time for you to take off! The runway is clear, and the skies are cloudless and blue -- head off into the wild blue yonder! Aim for your most ambitious goals, because you are in a phase of life where they are more possible than ever. You have an excellent team of people in your corner. They're ready to tell you what you need to hear to feel powerful and good about yourself!

20 july 2007 --- 4 in the morning

-->menu

-->message

-->saved items

-->folders

-->my afiq

laz nite b4 i slept...laying on the bed n opened up my phone...read the past of afiq's messages...each of it...i cried again...hm how this could be happened...n when it'll be stop bothering me...everyday...again n again...wondering~confuse~curious~sadness~

zzzZZZZzzzzz

1.Kamu rasa kamu lawa ke?
- hm bese je kot...:P

2.kamu memiliki telefon bimbit pada umur berapa?
- abeh skola

3.Salah satu parut pada kamu, macam mana kamu dapat?
- fell from motorcycle

4.Minuman kegemaran?
- vanilla coke

5.Tabiat buruk kamu?
- gigit kuku

6.Kali terakhir kamu menangis?
- i dont really remember

7.Namakan mereka yang ada di Top Friend kamu?
- adik,eisya,sauphy,shaleen,hm lupe dh...

8.Kamu rindukan siapa?
- my family

9.Adakah kamu pandai memasak?
- bole la...hoho

10.Siapa yang sedang online di senaraiYM kamu?
- so many

11.Kamu sedang mendengar lagu apa?
- no music

12.Hadiah yang kamu dapat dan dari siapa?
- ???arghh...4got

13.Apa perasaan kamu sekarang?
- hm nk blek bp kot:(

14.Siapakah orang terakhir yang memberi komen kepada kamu?
- pai senye

15.Perkara yang kamu nanti-nantikan?
- mama get 1 more kantin...i x saba mau shopping!!!!

16.Makanan pilihan kamu di McD?
- 1 set of double cheeseburger n a small chick porridge

17.Siti Nurhaliza ke Jaclyn Victor?
- both

18.SMS terakhir yang kamu terima dan dari siapa?
- "ella, aku dh kat blik" by ain

19.Apa yang kamu buat jika berasa marah@ geram?
- open up my winamp, nyanyi kuat2 n nangis...:)

20.Siapa orang terakhir yang bercakap dengan kamu di telepon
- my adik i think

21.Kalau kamu diberi peluang untuk membunuh dan membunuh itu x berdosa,kamu akan bunuh siapa?
- afiq!!!he made me crazy.

22.3 perkara yang kamu sedang lakukan sekarang?
- typing dis

23.Siapa yang berada dengan kamus ekarang?
- ain, she's sleeping

24.Perkara yang akan kamu lakukan hujung minggu ini?
- ice-breaking 4 freshier kat sg congkak

25.Item kegemaran kamu?
- my kamera,my nset,my pc

26.Dimana tempat pilihan kamu untukberbulan madu?
- sumwhere at the beach or tempat sejuk...

27.Adakah kamu menyukai seseorang sekarang?
- yes/no, yes/no...im x sure

28.Perkara yang kamu tidak suka semasa di sekolah?
- exam...haha

due to previous post

continue wif the post of 11 n 16 july...

the girl that i storied b4 is totin...i really dont expect that i will meet her that day..."korang knal kiteorg x?eh slah...means pnah x nmpk kiteorg dimane2?"...hehe.i juz smiled wif those questions...i donno whether they noe the meaning of my smile...heeeeee

totin- oh afiq zamzam 2? die dh tunang kan?
ella - :)...:D
totin- bole ke afiq tu tunang ek?
ella -(curious) hm nape catu? die playboy ke?
totin- erk...die x de prasaan langsung kot ngn pompuan
ella- [ :)) gelak guling2 dlm ati)] o ye ke...ok

tunang?hoho...ni snoy punye pasal la ni...x pandai tye soklan dan x fhm jawapan...haha...smpi totin pn bole ckap afiq tunang...huahahaha.n afiq was like gunduk2 kan snoy bia percaye...i still remembered tht afiq said he will tunang or married me on march but donno which year...n snoy really2 pecaye that dis year...ntah pape...but it was few months ago...n now...hampir 2 months i didn't meet him...rindu ke?hmmm ntah...i dont really understand wif my feeling now...confuse...
wat i always do juz doa yg terbaik for him je...amin...

ha!!!back to the earlier...totin is a cute girl...she was like very friendly...a wealthy girl...gle ketawe...nmpk la standard n educated...n from her appearance, i think she's like pink...btw, if bile2 nnt jmp snoy...i'll tell him that i noe his taste cos all of his girl that i met b4 n latest totin...they(the snoy's girl) were like adik-beradik pn ade...kcik2 n comel2...hoho

tonite 19/7 -----> wawan's bifday...

hepy bifday n blaja rajin2 tau!!!!

n!!!

friday:
me n ain went to sunway pyramid. i bought a pair of shoe from vincci n ain bought a sweet choc shirt.we dinnered at keny rogers n we habes rm50 for 2 persons makan je.n i really2 bengang coz i was forgot to bawak blek skali my esprit raspberi yg maseh sparo isinye...pergh!!!!panas!!!

saturday:
have to fetch pai at alamanda...sothat, me, ekin n kak shasha went to alamanda cri makan n kak sha bought a pair of shoe from timberland.price around 400 n dis% until rm150.pergh mau x bli :P...afterwards fetched chym2 at erl putra.im still searching a dress/shirt yg sesuai 4 me.

sunday:
send pai back 2 uitm...b4 that me,pai n pejol went to OU whereby pejol have to meet his frend there.as i noe b4, the person he wanna meet is totin(story telling 4 next post)...she wif another 2 girls(i didnt noe the 2 girls name) already waiting us at burger king.afterthat, i left pejol wif them n me wif pai went to chic rice shop having our lunch.tgh2 mkn 2,edwin call n asked us to go to the starbucks.then we got 2 ice blended(choc rice~oreo) from edwin...so wat i felt was like nk berak2 je sbb bnyk sgt makan...then went back to burger king n bayie was just arrived too...after accompany pejol n bayie makan at ***(a japanese restaurant-n i donno how to spell) we blek...

*wat i wanna tell here along the weekdays last week, my duit blanje x bnyk klua coz i was mengalami probs malas makan.but for the 3 days of "weekend"...i was habes rm150 just bought a pair shoes dan baki ratus 2 i was habeskan dgn makan faz food!!! therefore, x payah timbang pon i noe that my weight is still kat 49kg...(tersasar pengiraan untk mendapatkan 47kg :P)nk keja brat shaleen ni!!!hahaha!!!

read shaleen's blogger n she already came back from bali...meriah minah ni bejalan!!!

*gonna stop here.nk tido sat coz i already didnt sleep for lebe 24 hours...mengadap 3d modelling yg bru je submit juz now...neway...saye rindu eisya!!!blek cpat weh!!!

2 years ++

hoho...upenye my blogger ni already 2 years exists...actually 2 years ++...n its have hampir 140 posts...huhu.meriah!!!but in the middle months of 2006 aku x bnyk update...coz i was having my prettiest life at the moments...n the moments/memories r still in my mind n i'll bury it deep inside of my heart...hoho.how i mizz damansara...4 a long time aku x pi sane...coz its remind me to the past life...OU...the apartment...the 13 level...180 darjah of kuala lumpur...kl tower~menara rebung~klcc~wat else...may i?

afiq

best..paling best
skali mase date yg
ujan tu rse cm
rmntk gle..first datekan mse tu

sender:
afiq
+601776.....

*orchid spring perfume*
*its rainy nite*
*at the window*
*kl scenery*
*u *** me from the back*

:((

T_T

may i scream tht i m missing sum1????!!!!!

she is...

ha!!!
found sum1's blogger...
from my best frend punye frend's blog...
they r in 1 cos/U...
but this girl studying in jakarta...
n she's mayb 1 of the best frend of my best frend's frend...
sbb org bp kan...
actually she is too familiar 4 me...
ops sori...
her name actually...
but i never meet/see her yet b4...
yes...
1stly i knew him as senoy ex-gf MAYB...
2nd - afiq pnah xciden kan kete die kot!!!...:P...hm 2 la bf saye:D
3rd - then she's coming to mmu cyber chilled wif nani(my cosmate)
4th - read her comment in zaqi/joe's blogger
5th - always becomment wif senoy(dlu)
n now ooo extigs-rians upenye...

will be continue later

x title 1

x manjalara dis evening...

intenet lost its areal/antena maybe...

rimas3 - around the corner...:P

downloading never again song but still pending - apehal?

feeling bored kot...

dis weekend im x going anywhere...

submission n presentation on monday...

huda juz arrived from her work kat 8tv...

ain guling2 sleeping on the bed sambil gayut???

adib ym me juz to buzz n said "jap.mlm smbng" - sudah...:P

i lost my msg archive wif noreda.x sempat jawab qns die dh sign out..

anyway my frend. the answer is"i syg n still tggu my ex 2...but if lelaki cam azmil 2.bederet 1o guys pn aku x nak pandang.huahahaha!!!"

magrib already...

mandi~semayang

gtg...chiow!!!

pai!!!!

hepy bifday!!!

um merdeka x-games

promotion2!!!!
even aku study kat mmu...
tp flyers2 below ni sume event my "bf" bestfrend punye...
n aku juz tlg promote je...
sape2 yg ade band / hip hop / bboy / ska8s / bmx-ers / ape lg ntah...
sile2 berkesudian tok join competition2 ni...
:))
hoho

UNIVERSITI MALAYA: Merdeka X-Games - 2nd-9th September 2007

wealthy men?

pg td at 11 o'clock went to fmd building...
gamaknye mmg x mampu jalan kaki la...
so i drove my car...
a lot of thnx to en rizal- 1 of the technician in mmu
coz giving me the layout n the details of achictecture of fcm building...
at least ade mende gak yg aku bole bwk pi class kol 2pm nnt...
tp aku prepare ape2 pn pasal measurement building 2...
ha amek gambo building pn x...:P
en rizal said dont jual my plan 2 k...
hihi
x mungkin sir...
ha ckap pasal jual...
related to money...
n money...
i have to pay fees for rm2k to finance b4 register my subjek...
gile mmu ni...
really membawe meaning of money making U...
kamis ni mama n adik x jd trun kl...
coz adik, her tangan kne gigit lipan...
n mama ade order jamuan plak coz cikgu mazlan have 2 pindah skola...
so on the monday mayb aku blek kl besame2 mreke be2 to setel down the fees...
hm aneway...
mane nk cri bf yg kaye...
hm another criteria...
x NSEM SGT x pe...
but if tgk die 2 "ooo ade style gak"
haha
x kesala he want 2 pasang bape ramai gefen pn...
but the thing is aku nk die tanggung blaja aku...
hehe...
bukan nk kikis duit die tok shoping ke...
jalan2 ke...
minyak ke...
tol ke...
tp untuk study je...
if nanti aku dh kje..
aku byr blek...
mane nk cri ain!!!!
wah!!!
everyday ain la yg asik dgr aku repeat n repeat the same wish...
nk bf kaye!!!
haha
k la....
nk prepare..
smayang...
i have class on 2pm
chow shin chi...

*rindu afiq*

loneliness...

juz abes my evening class...pnat woo...class dr 9-12...2-6...tecabut bontot aku dok lame2...:P
sya...gaknye ko pcaye x...im walking to class alone...blek dr class alone...nek the stairs pn sorang2...masuk our room sorang2...turn rite...turn left...tengok depan...tengok blakang...abes class aku tros blek blik...x mood to eat coz x u to accompany me makan...heeecam x caye plak sume sorang2...dlu...slalu kite be2...or actually ade wani...abes clas makan!!!!blom abes clas pn...i always heard...u said again2 n again...ella!!!lapa!!!hihi
lucu la...skang ni ym n nset je jd our tranlater...:P
if we meet sumday/oneday...or if 3 months lagi when u back 2 mmu...i'll run fastly n pluk ko kuat2...n nak nangis kuat2...sbb aku rindu gle kat ko!!!sbb aku syg ko sgt2!!!btolkan ade pribahse 2 sounds like"1 day if she/he x around, or beside u,u'll begin 2 realize tht how she/he is really2 important 2 ur life"hm now...dis is wat i felt...i have ain beside me...i have pejol, fahmy,nana in class...i have many more frends around...n they r so baik 2 me since they noe aku dh x de ko...but the way u treat me, or the way u live wif me...surely different...i'll always waiting 4 my "shin goon" bear from u...10q dear...aku x pnah menyesal dgn pekare2 lame...bende2 lame dlu...but if the time aku bole patah blekkan...i wont live u alone...i wont fall in luv "yet"tp 2 sume dh lpas...n now im the one tht serves me rite...:Pneway sya...surely aku sedey bile jd cani...afiq gone...dan ko pi intern...tp yg aku lebe sedey...when i left u behind dlu...mmg x niat sya...aku pk ko tngah bek ngn mad...n ade kak huda...drang bole teman ko...but now i knew the way u felt...x same kan antare kite be2 ngn antare 1 of us ngn org len...

ops...got msg..."semue hicom sek@mmu sile attend kan dri di grand hall skang- mif"huhu...bye...semekom...

*i really2 miz my afiq*

shah alam

i spending my weekend kat shah alam dis week...luckyly kak iela was here 2...klo x surely aku boring...spent the wholeday by watching tv...n read mingguan wanita(mak ngah punye kot)...noe wat, so many things i learnt from the book...haha...sape je x tau masalah2 yg ade dlm magazine 2 :P...sape2 yg x saba nk kawen 2...better start bli the book n read it...menjamin ur healthy,relationship(husband) n mase depan!!!haha

lately...aku mengalami masalah duit yg ketare...actually of coz dr sumber pendapatan family kan...x saba dh waiting mama n papa get a new bisnez...i dont mind wheather dpt a new kantin or papa get a new kontrak...im really2 sedey when adik told me bout how down nye our family rite now...hm 2 blom lg when the school hols tibe...pergh!!!

kamis ni mayb mama trun kl...sbb i asked mama to talk to finance...cube naseb...at least cube...bukan ape...ksian mama gak klo2 kne byr smpi rm2000...adoih...mane nk cekau duit...arap2 lpas la registration subjek aku...hm aminnn....doa2kan yek...neway lastly...hepy becoming bifday zue!!! on 30/6 tonite, muachhz!!!

k la...

wanna stop here...

* i luv my mama*

* luv my papa*

* i miz eisya to hear my bebel*

* i miz kak huda to teman me cry*

* n i really2 miz afiq*

nite!!!