sunday evening

-erghk!!!!
-ar ko...kenyang!!!
-sedawe wat kali ke-3
-juz came back from alamanda...
-3 of us(me,eisya n madihaha)
-we walked along the mall dgn laju2...
-lapa!lapa!lapa!!!
-"bbq honey chic rice-2, stewed 1.tq"
-makan dgn laju2...
-then...changed 2 another table...
-"hm choc-a-nut the belgian 1 pliz.tq"
-*mcD*
-"a large of chic porridge pliz.tq"
-ha kau!!!!
-mampos gmuk!!!
-x!!!
-"ella,kite ni cam mabuk cinte plak makan bnyk2.x tau idup mcm org tgh tonggeng2 frust"
-:p
-haha...

*i have 1 paper more 2 go...dis thurs will be my laz day of gamma year...huhu.now tgh pning2 thinking of how im gonna to kemas my room.x tau from which part,which sudut i have to start.mcm x de prasaan je nk cuti.tp prasaan nk blek 2 of cos.wanna meet my best frends2(gile ramai).hm pai,awin.lala.zu.wanna ronggeng2.poye2.haha.earlier hols.mcm2 plan dh de.26-29 plan to jb.3rd jun plan to perak.maklumla,status skang ni (its complicated)dh kne gantung x betali.so no1/nobody will ask me"syg ari ni wat ape?pi mane?next week?dis week?hols ni cane?"argh!!!!
bole gile klo pk.n mama ngn papa x de hal.aku bukak mulut je mau pi mane.sume ha'a asalkan duit ade.mayb drang ksian lg kot ngn keadaan aku.hehe.gle ksian ayat.hm its ok.i can control myself now.even sumtimes ade tears yg aku x leh nk control 2 klua gak.but im still OK.bole hepy2 gle2 lagi :P...actually ade mende/bnyk mende tht i want to write here...or maybe cite kat sumbody.but its hard 4 me to tell.i donno whether im a secreto or the story i want to tell is so complicated.aku sendri bingung.x pe la...nnt aku wat novel or story telling kot.heeee:D
skang ni tgh mabuk edit2 my pics smule.know wat...aku bru scan me n afiq's pics mase tgh hepy2 dlu.hehe.i'll upload later kat blog ni je.nk upload kat frenster dh x kne gaye.kat myspace?hm maybe kot tp tepakse la aku wat private album nnt*

* watever people said bout me or us. i dont care.cause i know tht u knew me much better*

- bole blah la ngn org yg ckap aku sombong 2.aku x padan la ngn afiq 2 sbb gini2 gitu2.pegi
mampos.u're nobody.u're outsiders.aku bukan jenis pompuan yg ske2 nk bek ngn lelaki.ske2
nk gdik ngn lelaki.ckap pon men larung.tbe2 nk ckap aku sombong.hih!!!!!bengang gile ni!!!!

chow!!!!

T_T

saye nangis ari ni...

saye nangis lame2...

saye nangis kuat2...

saye nangis puas2...

.......FULL STOP

poems...

1 of my frend gave these while im in sadness ...

if u love someone...

just let it go.

if he/she return to u...

it means, he/she is urs.

but if it didn't happened...

it'll never be urs

another poem:

If one day u feel like crying, call me.

i don't promise that i will make u laugh, but i can cry with u.

If one day u want to run away, don't be afraid to call me.

i don't promise to ask u to stop, but i can run with u.

If one day u don't want to listen to anyone, call me.

i promise to be there for u and i promise to be quiet.

But if one day u call, and there is no answer, come fast to see me.

perhaps i need u....

i can stand with feet, but i can't stand with u.

i can't live without oxygen, but u are my oxygen.

i can love u, but can't hate u.

i love with soul, but u are my soul....

digubah dan diadaptasi oleh *adib*

sedey!!!

kak huda (4/25/2007 12:10:37 AM): da blik?
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:10:37 AM): :)
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:10:38 AM): hehehehehehe
ella (4/25/2007 12:10:59 AM): ha'a
ella (4/25/2007 12:11:04 AM): td ella nmpk jaja kua ek
ella (4/25/2007 12:11:07 AM): sorang je?
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:11:08 AM): aah
ella (4/25/2007 12:11:09 AM): *ke
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:11:10 AM): ngn adi
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:11:29 AM): dia g amik ade kot kt ostel
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:11:30 AM): :((
ella (4/25/2007 12:12:40 AM): oooo
ella (4/25/2007 12:12:42 AM): :P
ella (4/25/2007 12:12:46 AM): bez nye
ella (4/25/2007 12:12:48 AM): :((
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:12:52 AM): npe?
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:12:55 AM): alalalala...
ella (4/25/2007 12:13:52 AM): jeles!!!
ella (4/25/2007 12:13:56 AM): tdkan kak huda
ella (4/25/2007 12:14:17 AM): kwn adik 2 celebra8 bifday bf die
ella (4/25/2007 12:14:20 AM): suprise gle
ella (4/25/2007 12:14:34 AM): pas2 kan drang acting sebiji cam ella ngn afiq dlu
ella (4/25/2007 12:14:36 AM): :((
ella (4/25/2007 12:14:40 AM): sedey kak huda
ella (4/25/2007 12:14:42 AM): sedey!!!
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:14:57 AM): la...
ella (4/25/2007 12:14:57 AM): doa ek 1 ari nnt afiq brubah then kite bek smule
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:15:03 AM): aminn...
ella (4/25/2007 12:15:08 AM): ella nk smbut bifday die september nnt
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:15:14 AM): iAllah
ella (4/25/2007 12:15:16 AM): nk wat suprise cam2 gak
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:15:21 AM): iAllah
kak huda (4/25/2007 12:15:24 AM): bole tu
ella (4/25/2007 12:15:52 AM): amin!!!!

poem?

poem ni i picked from sum1 status kat ym....
sori bob:P
saje nk share2...
huhu

seseorang yg kite pk adalah milik kita...
ternyata bukan benar2 milik kita...
kita memiliki hatinya...
tubuhnye dan cintanye...
tetapi...
tidak pernah memiliki jalan hidupnye...

klcc

hoho
lupe mau btau ahirnya hari 2 aku bejye smpi juge di klcc setlah berkepingin ke sane...
actually mule2 pi mid saje mau jalan2/window shopping...
tp sempat gak aku amek selai baju kat zara....
pas2 bru teingt i got an mng baju yg blom dipakai lg...:P
hehe...
on the way klua mid i gived a called to ema ajak klua...
skali x bley sbb die kne masuk blek b4 10.30...
hehe. lupe ipta:P...ske ati aku je
laz2 kami decide pi klcc...
saje jalan2 cuci mate tgk pemandangan...
lgpn ari2 lg aku dh kempunan mau ke sane...
but ktorg juz pi sane sambil jalan sambil snap gamba...
then bought a glass of cream choc cips kat starbuck n blek...
on our way jalan ke kete ade la 2 org lelaki ni toleh2...
wat x tau sudah.
bile smpi kete aku cam knel je kete yg paking depan aku ni.
i called mail then upenye the 2 guys yg toleh2 tgk2 tu upenye die...
haha
aiyak malunye...
dh la tgh posing2 gambo mase die lalu tu...
seb bek glap...
so we cannot nampak each other...:P

dedicated to dearest frends...

Satu hari CINTA & KAWAN berjalan dalam kampung...
Tiba-tiba CINTA terjatuh dalam telaga...
Kenapa??
Kerana CINTA itu buta..
Lalu KAWAN pun ikut terjun dalam telaga...
Kenapa??
Kerana...
KAWAN akan buat apa sahaja demi CINTA !!
Di dalam telaga CINTA hilang...
Kenapa??
Kerana...
CINTA itu halus, mudah hilang kalau tak dijaga, sukar dicari apatah lagi dalam telaga yang gelap...
Sedangkan KAWAN masih lagi tercari-cari dimana CINTA & terus menunggu..
Kenapa??
Kerana...
KAWAN itu sejati & akan kekal sebagai KAWAN yang setia...
Walau kita punyacouple,teman still paling setia.
Walau kita punya harta banyak,teman still paling berharga.
Sayang awak sume!!
frenz never break............

hapus aku - by nidji

saye tgh gile.mabuk lagu ini...!!!

Kutuliskan kesedihan
Semua tak bisa kau ungkapkan
Dan kita kan bicara dengan hatiku

Buang semua puisi
Antara kita berdua
Kau bunuh dia sesuatu
Yang kusebut itu cinta

Reff:
Yakinkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku?

Sadarkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu waktu
Hapus aku?

18 april -----> 21st me

hepy bifday ella...

wish all ur dreams cum true...

hm bnyk 2 pe yg aku ajatkan...

hehe.

neway...

afiq b the 1st one yg wish my bifday...

terharu.sedey kot...

buat petame kalinye aku rase die seorg yg concern n alert plak...

msti die countdown kan nk wish aku.haha

walopon ia kebetulan tp aku nk prasan gak yg die mmg kire mase wish aku

:P erk...

wat petame kali gakla aku rase cam dihargai...

hehe...

btw...

thnx a lot 2 all my dearest frends yg wish...

eisya.kak huda.jaja.wani.

pai.zue.awin.lala.

shaleen.adik.sofi

shah.aini n bnyk lg...

hm kalo ade name sesape yg tecicir

ya maaf permisi

specially thnx n thnx again 2 eisya n kak huda 4 celebr8 my bif dgn bought a slice of choc indulgence

a slice is like a thousand luv 4 me...

n a slice of thousand thnx from me...

dis year present aku nk bli sesotu tok dri ku sendri...

sumthing tht i wish to bli a few months ago

tok aku smpn smpi mati...

klo dpt yg emas putih lg bgs...

muahahaha

close my eyes...

pray...

*smoge mama papa sht slalu*

*smoge mama papa sentiase dibukakan pintu rezki*

*smoge afiq brubah dan disyangi sume*

*smoge murah rezki afiq tok meneruskan plajarannye*

*smoge sentiase permudahkan pejalanan ku ini di jalan Mu*

*kuatkan semangat ku ini dlm meneruskan pelajaran*

*teguhkan keimanan ku ini dlm menempuh dugaan dan cabaran Mu*

*Amin...*

*selamat hari jadi ella*

-tiveism

keblakangan ni saye seorang:

-kuat bebel

-kuat mara

-sensitive

-bnyk cakap

-mulut jahat

-emo je

-kuat majuk

-kuat nangis

*those r mine.adoih...x tau la pe yg jd.gle -tive prangai.x pe.temporarily sahaje*

p/s: to shaleen

saye punye bifday 18 april...

mlm ni tau....

x kesala ayat yg shaleen postkan 2 tujukan tok sape pon.

tp aku nk perasan gak yg shaleen post 2 tok aku...

huahahaha...

muke x malu punye ella..:P

myspace jahat...

page aku kne hacked.

post comment yg "gatal2"

smpi org perli2

mara2 kot

ckap aku maki2 drang

eh helo....

pk skit beb

mcm x tau je internet ni cam s***

mcm aku gatal sgt nk tulis bukan2

gle desperate!!!

hampeh!!!

hantu btol!!!

lazly...

saye nk pi klcc!!!

jeles same gamba ema n mail!!!

x de afiq pn x pe la...

tp nk pi n amek gamba bnyk2!!!

im...

what i've done...

what've happened...

i wanna end up all of these...

its really hurt...

n im exhausted...

:((

love / hate

Cintailah orang yang kamu kasihi sekadarnya sahaja...

kerana boleh jadi di suatu saat nanti...

ia akan menjadi orang yang kamu benci...

Bencilah orang yang tidak kamu sukai sekadarnya sahaja...

kerana boleh jadi di suatu saat nanti...

ia akan menjadi orang yang kamu cintai...

*there's no 1 i really hate of...

*but there's 1 i really love of...

*will the 1 i really love will be my nitemare?

*or it juz a memory...

sigh...

emmm

1st...
aku bru smpi mmu pd pg td kol 5 lebe stlah menghabiskan weekend bebakti pade skola bakti di tasek gelugor pulau pinang...
letey yg amat sgt krane x mase terluang disane...
mase yg sunggo pack skali...
the nite ktorg blek pon juz sempat makan besar je...
siap singgah grai ikan bakar which is ade banting there tulis "AFUNDI ASWAD"
gle r...!!!

2nd...
aku bantai tido ari ni kaw2...
bgn pkul 2 hanye untok mandi,makan,dobi,mencuci,tgk af laz week...
then tumbang smule...
pkul b sengah kot br bgn...

3rd...
call afiq...
after hampir 3 weeks kami x bercontact...
honestly our status now is very complicated n undefined...:
i called him 2 comform kan interview die...
his bus,his time,n tmpt die stay...
malu siot...!!!
aku lg...
guess wht?
sad ending...
i was crying again...
depan kak huda plak 2...
malu...:p

4th...
decision...
sok die call juz tros amek...
otherwise wat dek je la...
malu la...
kite ikhlasly nk tolong...
wat bek...
tp mcm x sudi...
x dihargai...
hmmm...

{surrender...}

p/s: 2 be continued...mane tau skali tbe2 sok aku ade cte len plak...:P

2:56 in the morning

its hamper 3 o'clock in the morning oredy...
tp 1 hape pon x masuk lg dlm otak ni...
sok ptg ade midterm...
in the morning aku nk pi teman eisya wat paspot singapore/intenational die...
lps aku plak...
maklumla aku ske je jalan2 ni...
bape ari ni idup aku gembire je...
smpi ade beberape org dh tego...
alhamdulillah la...
jgn smpi at the end nnt sumthing bad happen sudah...
did i missing sum1?
or any1...
haih...
mama...
kakak nk blek...
sgt2...
tp takot sgt...
x tau la nk blek bedepan ngn sume cane...
ella malu kot ngn mama papa...
dan x slese nk bejmp ngn afiq...
haih...
perlukah nnt blek scare rasie...:P
k la nk tido...
o nk guling2 atas tilam smbl ngadap buku...
or the buku ngadap me...
haha
nite mama.papa.adik.cimbam.kak tin.afiq
luv u all n miz u all too much...
muuaaaccchzz!!!!

slase nite

selamat malam...

dh 2 ari ni badan x bape sihat...

im sick of...

hehe

not dis life...

not luv...

but nk demam!!!

even blom btol2 demam...

tp kepale aku dh miong2...

mate panas2...

idung selseme ngade2...

tekak gatal2 batok je....

bnyk sgt minum ice kot...

or demam rindu...?

huhu

nk tido la...

ngntok dh slps pekene pil demam kak siti seblah

assalamualaikum...

gud nite again...

luv mama...papa...adik...boboy...fatin...afiq...

p/s: penulisan yg agak mengarut...

tp lahir dr ati...:p

survey3

1. Have you ever been searched by the cops?
= nope.x masal.

2. Do you close your eyes on roller coaster?
= im a coward but bez gle.hihi

3. When's the last time you've beensledding?
= hm...

4. Would you rather sleep with someoneelse, or alone?
= sum1 else...saye ni pnakut

5. Do you believe in ghosts?
= yup tp x nak jmp!!!

6. Do you consider yourself creative?
= undefined

7. Do you think O.J. killed his wife?
= wth

8. Jennifer Aniston or Angelina Jolie?
= keira knightly

9. Can you honestly say you knowANYTHING about politics?
= x really

10. Do you know how to play poker?
= nope

11. Have you ever been awake for 48hours straight?
= yup...usually klo ade final esemen

12. What's your favorite commercial?
= knape? x pecaye ek?

13. Who was your first love?
= my afiq

14. If you're driving in the middle ofthe night, and no one is around you, doyou run a red light? = yup bantai je.

15. Do you have a secret that no oneknows but you?
= mayb

16. Boston Red Sox or New York Yankees?
= neither

17. Have you ever been Ice Skating?
= juz tgk2 org men je

18. How often do you remember your dreams?
= x sampai 1 jam

19. What's the one thing on your mind?
= sad

20. Do you always wear your seat belt?
= not really

21. What talent do you wish you had?
= donno

22. Do you like Sushi?
= tuna n salad only

23. What do you wear to bed?
= socks

24. Do you truly hate anyone?
= nope. im heartless:p

25. If you could sleep with one famousperson, who would it be?
= orlando bloom bole?hehe

26. Do you know anyone in jail?
= nope

27. What food do you find disgusting?
= snake.bluek!!!

28. Have you ever made fun of yourfriends behind their back?
= ?

29. Have you ever been punched in the face?
= nope

30. Do you believe in angels and demons?
= in terms of? im muslim kotttt

2nd april of 007

april is a good month 4 me.in other word is my lucky month.hehe.i juz finished up my tags tok sek@mmu penang.hm leceh skit kot.2 pn ade certain lg x de gambo.seb bek x sampai limak orang(slang penang skit)...:P
dis kamis nite aku akan betolak ke penang.pkul 9 dh kne gather kat in front of stad.mayb sbb bnyk gle brg kne prepare n setel laz minit so gather awal kot.2 pn pd aku mcm singkat mase 2 sbbnye betolak pkul 12 mlm.its ok.x letey sgt betolak mlm ni.klo siang bole pning pale aku sbb panas kot.cumenye dlm bus nnt jgn beku aku sudey sbb aku x tahan sjuk.kaki kje krem je nnt.
4 dis trip im going wif eisya.hihihi.lame x dating ngn die jao2...:p...ella!!! pehal?!!!hehe.
ikut plan aku nk tulis blogger ni the nite b4 pegi.tp tkt x sempat plak.tkt bnyk kje.so better aku update skang.tp klo nnt sempat update aku update lg.hihihi.
hm xcited? x really...cumenye gembire.sbb aku suke jalan2 mlancong2 ni.pi negri2 org len ni.experience...2 yg aku suke.lg1 pi skola2 jd faci.bez kot.ni dh kali ke3 aku mengikuti pogrem sek@mmu ni.bukannye ape lg 1 senang nk dpt hostel.hihihi.mane mampu beb nk duk apatmen mahal2 kat cyber ni.
family?hm rindu sgt2!!! mama papa adik cimbam fatin...afiq.hampir 2 weeks kami x becontact.hm ntah la ape status pn x tau.hihihi.but 4 me u'r still mine even 1 day nnt u said im not urs. i dont mind...:(
td pg mama n adik told me afiq kne interview i think 4 um's course.kat mane interview 2 x tau.tp senye kat ittho.but on 11th april.haih...aku kat mmu lg kot.mane bley blek.on the day of the date 2 jugak la aku ade presentation.hm aku soh adik uruskan je.pakaian die.peginye.suratnye.interview nye.haih....klo x 2 sume aku yg uruskan:(...riso bangat!!!
arap2 die dptla mane2 x kesala um or uum.
kadang2 rase x nak blek.takut.mcm mane reaction kami nnt bile jmp.tp aku dh ckup rindu sgt same mreke...:( n of coz him.im scared to facing any1 n everything.
hm sgalanye aku serah pade mase,ati dan fikiran kite.all i juz can say that i tawakal je skang...
ati i dh beblah bagi...hope u always fine n gud luck syg....

unknown survey 1

1. Who would you want to sleep with on the bed?
= heee:D

2. Who do you blame for your mood today?
= myself

3. Have you ever seen a dead body?
= yup

4. What should we do with stupid people?
= hm...lantak die la kot

5. How long do you think you will live?
= ntah.tp mcm nk mati skang...:(

6. What was the first thing you did this morning?
= tekejut huda dh mandi dulu.means aku dh lmbt bgn

7. The color of carpet in your bedroom?
= x de carpet

8. Last person you went out to dinner with?
= eisya,kak huda,jaja kat sirah

9. Are you spoiled?
= hm ha'a

10. Do you drink lot of water?
= yup but still kne ulser

11. What toothpaste do you use?
= colgate

12. How do you vent your anger?
= nyanyi kuat2 dan nangis

13. The last compliment you received?
= x ingt kot

14. Do you look more like your mother or father?
= more to my granny

15. When was the last time you threw up?
= dh bape lame kot.x ingt

16. Who are your best friends?
= oldest- haneeda
= older- shaleen
= newest- pai
= newer- ema
= currently- eisya
*too complicated

18. Are you a momma's child or adaddy's child?
= both

19. Would you ever join the military?
= x beminat
20. The last websites you visited?
= my blogger

21. Who was the last person you took apicture with?
= x ingt r
22. Last person you went to the movies with?
=laz sunday wif mama,papa,boboy fatin cte mr bean

23. The last person you stared at?
= eisya

24. Number of pillows on your bed?
= suppose 4. 2 dh derma kat org

25. Is anything alive in your room?
= yup.my rumate eisya n huda

26. Today, would you rather go back aweek or go forward a week?
= mane2 x de hal

27. What is your current goal to achieve?
= haih...

28.Define love:
= im speechless

29. How is your hair?
= besiput like a mom wif 8 childs

30. What are your current worries?
= my parent,my family, my syg

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
We'd see the day when nobody died

specially dedicate to afiq...

sayang...
embun di pagi buta
menebarkan bau basah
detik demi detik ku hitung
inikah saat ku pergi
saat ku undur diri...

sayang...
aku tak mudah untuk mencintai
aku tak mudah mengaku ku cinta
aku tak mudah mengatakan
aku jatuh cinta

sayang...
senandungku hanya untuk cinta
tirakatku hanya untuk engkau
tiada dusta sumpah ku cinta
sampai ku menutup mata
cintaku padamu
sampai ku menutup mata

welcoming april...

adin- 11.04
ella- 18.04
alan, inzurulain- 20.04
haneeda- 28.04

*actually ade lg...tp aku lupe plak...neway,hepy becoming bifday...
*below aku post sum characters 4 sape2 yg lahir dlm bln april...dah alang2 pon aku april gak...:P

APRIL=GORGEOUS

Drop dead gorgeous!!!

Attractive personality.

Very sexy.

Affectionate & Secretive.

Naturally honest, generousand sympathetic.

Chatterbox! Loves totalk alot! Loves to get their way! .

Unbelievable kisser!

Easily angered.

Very stubborn in the most way possible!

Loves to get noticed!

Willing to take risks for others.

Makes good choices.

Has a greatfashion sense!

Maybe a little too popular with others * wink wink*.

Outgoing and crazy at times!

Intelligent.

Can sometimes be a heartbreaker!

Can love as much as possible!

Hates insults. Loves compliments!

A very big flirt!

Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness.

The best in bed out of MFE these months!!

Hardly shows emotions.

Tends to bottle up feelings.

Observantand assesses others.

*yg lg 1 ni plak tok afiq yg birth on sept:

SEPTEMBER=SEXY

Loves to chat. Loves those who love them.

Loves to takes things at the centre.

Greating bed.

Innerand physical beauty.

Doesn't pretend.Gets angry often.

A meaningful love life partner.

Makes right choices.

Treats friends importantly.

Brave and fearless.

Always making friends.

Doesnot harm others.

It is all about love and fairness.

Easily hurt but recovers easily.

Daydreamer.

Horny and does fullfill.

Opinionated.

Does not care to control emotions.

Knows what to do, to have fun.

Unpredictable. Someone to have close to you.

Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest n sexiest of them all.

CHECK CHECK CHECK IT OUT!!!!!

cold weather...

kau masih ku cintai

sungguh...

dri awal dlu hngga hari ini...

aku pasti seyakinnya pasti...

kaulah satu untukku...

kau masih dewi hatiku...

sungguh...

biar berjuta tahun hilang dihari...

usah gusar...

sayang usah ragu...

aku milikmu...

sender:

afiq Luv

+60177......

sent:

05:29:11 pm

19-03-2007

I lurve u

sender:

afiq Luv

+60177......

sent:

05:50:44 pm

19-03-2007

*hepy bifday madihah!!!

hmmm :((

pg td bgn cm bese...actually nk bgn lmbt tp sbb bunyi phone lagu chasing cars...i knew its afiq.hehe...kjot i bgn ke syg.lupe nk btau i x de class pg ni.tp beberape kali die call aku x smpt angkat...hm:(

i read sum1 blog juz now...

its really sad n touching me...

im crying...

wth is going on...

y do man like 2 hurting a woman...

its really hurt...

when sum1 left us...

then sum1 ignore us...

n sum1 deny us...

be a lovers...

its really hurt...

when he unbelieving me...

then he accusing me...

n he unappreaciating me...

this life is fair...

but its really hurt...

by loving sum1...

sayang...

im very happy dis morning when i hear ur call...

im very excited when ur name is on the screen...

but im felt so bad bile x sempat angkat ur call...

u tau x yg i takuttt sgt nk call u balek...

sayang...

i bace msg u mara2...

garangggg sgt...

i reply wif every nice words...

tp u accusing me wif unreasonable words...

at the end u wrote each words tht make me felt so bad n really2 sad...

hm sampai nye ati...

*ok mau pi bungkus makanan...eisya tggu dibawah...

*p/s --> my dearest frend...aku x pnah slahkan sesape ngn ape yg blaku...malah aku rase

besyuko sgt...i knew u love me...n so do i...im very glad by having u in my life :*

sob...:(( sob ... :((sob...:((

hepy bifday alin...

moge pnjg umo...

murah rezki...cpt2 kawen...

jgn gedik2 je...

haha

:((

mama!!!nk balek kot!!!rindu r kat umah :P ni la ni anak dare dr masuk blaja smpi skang masih homesick3!! kje nk blek je tiap2 mnggu.hehe...

*the malang of 2 days*

1. pi mid jpgi sume atm x leh kua duit tok bcb holder(bangang!!)
-membaze kot wat mega sale klo x leh kua duit
- ade pacik 2 mara2.eiy takut!!msti sbb wife die dh shopping sakan smpi duit abeh :P hehe

2. cash ditngn ade rm30...huhu adik pon bole payung rm30 je.sdngkan hage purse tok present
mama 2 begande2 kot.

3. x smpi 2 jam balek...bengang ni!!!

4. tepegang pig skin dgn slambernye!!! hm sudah.

5. buang duit menaiki teksi sedngkan depan mate ade shuttle ikram free.

6. td siang lps anta adik nek bus ke joho, aku dgn yakin nye nek STAR.tp dgn bengangye aku
trun di stesen yg ntah kebape bepatah balek ke chon sow lin.mumy!!!!slah nek tren upenye!!!
uwa :((

* tibe di mmu kol 12.23
(2 be continued)
- its time to smayang

p/s : how glad i m if u cud try 2 trust me 4 once...(sebarang gramer/spelling x rujukan)

revision :P

its raining outhere.since in the morning...hm x kesala klo ujan renyai2.jgn lebat lg pasni suda cos im going out wif adik 2 mid nk bli present 4 my mom(actually 26 feb ari2 bif mama tp asik delay bli je)hehe.mcm nk shoping skit sbbnye skang tngh mega sale.tp skit je tau.hehe.las nite i went 2 jj sri kembangan wif eisya, kak huda n wani.ngt nk bli long sleeve(senanye dh try pon tp siap round 2 kali lg ke kedai 2)tp malangnye aku rase x slese plak...so decide today je pi mid bli ngn adik.hehe.hm cm lamenye nk tggu kol 1 lebe...sbbnye nk mandi lg,semayang pas2 nk klua.maklumla sejak nek sem ni aku x pnah ditinggal sesorang begini...:(( sedey...kak huda,naimah,jaja pn x bgn lg.hm...
since smlm cuace btwn me n afiq x bape bek.i donno whats the reason but as usually i noe in the end its become my fault.even aku rase im x the 1 started the arguement...x pe la.biala rede dlu.hopefully...its hurt but i noe i'll missing it( this hurt) if i lost him.coz he's great person i ever had.

flash 2 the back :P
dh 2 ari ni aku review blek catitan yg lme2.sgan plak rase nye bile bace.hehe.hampir 2 years aku knal afiq n 2 years maybe i like him.n 4 sure dh sethn kami couple(tp x pnah tau la ble tarikh couple.hehe) tp sepanjang kami "rapat" br aku prasan jarang aku update blogger ni,n pejalanan my relationship pn tidak aku note kat sini.actually bemacam-macam pekare yg blaku.from "its" begin until end of the story, sadness n guilty become apart of mylife.but im not regret it. "sesungguhnye yg bruk itu dtg dr dri sendri"...cumenye i'll be more hati2 on every steps,every moves,every words tht i take.i donno it is true or not by trusting sum1 even he/she is really bez 4 us....but 4 me.im serik. n i really2 meant it.tidak aku menyalahklan sesape dgn stiap ape yg belaku sbb sgale yg tejadi dan sgale keburukan bemule dr dri ku sendri.its better i keep n bury it deep in my heart.
hehe cewah!! teremo plak...

*hot instant milo n bread*
hm ckup tok aku alas prut sbb nnt nk mkn kat lua je...neway dh la kot.nk sapu ubat kat my tangan yg kne air panas sku minit yg lepas...sob2

thurs 1

salam sejahtera....
moge sihat2 slalu...
di tgh ari yg crah ini...(ala2 coce pg gitu) tibe2 ada rajin plak nk bukak blogger ni...makin mls kot aku nk update2 ni... bukan ape,mcm mls nk becrite2 dlm ni...idea,mende nk tulis mmg bnyk...tp its better i keep it sendri je...2 mnggu ni mabuk tgk cite korea...sweetnye sgt2 kot :D hehe...sape yg x nak kawen ngn anak raje...haha
hm aku? dok eh...brangan2 bole la...reality x nak r...yg skang ade pon dh mcm anak raje ape lg klo officially btol2 anak raje...patah pinggang kot :P...dis week x balek...bukan ape...every weeks aku blek...sian plak ngn papa mama...duit nye 1 hal...pas2 nyusahkan drang anta2 aku ke bustand...pas2 tiap2 kali balek aku msti sedey...hehe.cume saturday ni mau klua same adik...blikan mama nye present..nk bli kan purse mahal skit kat mid kot...nk pi OU jao kot pas2 x de sape lg kat sne...hehe.another 3 weeks im going 2 pinang...beznye!!!lame dh travel ni..laz aku pi klantan laz year...time ni je la nk jalan...sok luse dh abes blja mane lg mau pi...hehe
hm cam nk upload gambo..aku n afiq kot..tp x nak la...malu...kontrovesi nnt...haha!!!
k babai

sarraghamnida...

i love u...
i love the way u looking at me...
i love the way u staring at me...
i love the way u act like u're cool...
i love the way u touching me...
i love ur pretty looks...
i love ur nice styles...
i love ur cool attitude...
i love ur words...
i love ur promises...
i love u badly....
i love u seriously...
besides the way i love u makes me so happy...
and the way i love u makes me crazy...
faithfully love u...

hm...

i luv afIq!!!!!

nite....

lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice
saying my name, it sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words, it makes me weak
And I, never wanna say goodbye
But boy you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

mataari dh meninggi dh.xde mende pon yg aku wat...nk wat esemen.tp org len sume pi klas.suppose ade klas kol 9.tp sbb ade maslah skit dgn batch aku yg amek vr x smpi 5 org.maybe kne extend la kot.hm?extend lg...hehe.x kesa la.asl aku blaja abes.hm cite sal study.td aku bukak web upu nk semak interview date afiq.bole plk die kate x application.x pe. aku msg plak.pn die kate x pemohonan.abeh yg aku apply online die kate bejaye.then aku siap anta borang 2 borang ape.gram ni.siap die aku call nanti.kalo x pon soh mama.bekeja2 aku siapkan bole plak x diproses.marah ni.

skang ni ngh tggu pejol siapkan surat.then aku nk pi anta kat dean.pas2 pi stad apply verification letter plak.ade aku nye ptptn sangkut lg.dh 2 sem=6 bln x mrase ptptn ni.die ingt aku kaye sgt nk byr study fees ni.cet.

rabu ni aku dh blek tiket bus kol 7.x masal je blek awal.sayang kot dgn klas aku kamis n jumaat.haih...tp masalhnye x de tiket langsung.x pe.rabu aku blek kamis leh tolong mama kat kantin.tau la tunggang langgang skali kantin bile sukan besar.tp nk soh mama wat mc letter kasi cik kam.sbb nk delay anta esemen.hee.

ok bye..
nk chow pi stad
babai

welcome

as'kum...
sharp pkul 6sku td aku slamat smpi di mmu.dgn penanaman semangat smule ke dlm dri ni nk meruskan study yg suda aku tangguh hampir sengah tahun.hm...x tau dh nk mule story cane.dr td aku smpi punye smangat nk smbng tulis blogger ni.pas2 lupe,len kate stuck suda.hmmm
br lpas call afiq.dh bgn die.bgn ke?hm.bkn....x tido lg die.hm...kpale die msti tgh becelaru...
aduihhh
x pe.ssh skang senang nanti2...hehe.dh kat mane gaknye mama papa skang.arap2 slamat la drang smpi umah.mlm ni?hmm nk tido cane?lame dh x tido sorang2...td pon mandi sorang2...slalu kat umah ade je bende nk wat.kat sini tibe2 se cam sebatang kare.aduih.clas pon ade ari jumaat.cane ek....nk drop ke amek je.mslhnye byk klas aku kne kejo ni.hmmm
hm ngh xde idea la nk tulis ape...nk edit2 gambo.masuk gambo.pas2 nk pi blik kak huda....
bosan!!!!
chow shin chan
bye

fasting

puase's days sedang bejalan...x really bz.sbb pose jd org makan kat kantin pon x ramai.spending by time byk kat umah.ptg je ari2 pi bazar....rindu sum1 la.eisya!!!!heih.bapak lame x jmp.next week maybe trun kl sat.jmp afiq kot.2 lg sorang aku rindu.hm...dh la.
x tau nk tulis ape.saje nk update. je
kat cc ni.ramai dak kecik.poning den.
bye chow shin chi:D

I LUV AFIQ!!!!

survey 2...

1. Where were you fEw hours ago?..
e-theatre claz

2. Who will be your next kiss?
my bantal

3. What is the largest amount of money
you spent in one store?
3+++...duit ptptn.haha

4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of
you?
beg huda

5. When is the last time you went to the
mall?
yesterday-JJ SKembangan

6. Are you wearing socks right now?
no...gle panas blik

7. When was the last time you cried?
2 days ago...it was really sad

8. Have you been to the movies in the
last 5 days?
no dan sepatotnye ye :(

9. What was the last thing you had drink?
teh panas mlm td

10. What are you wearing right now?
white giordano shirt n bondage boxer

11. Do you wash your car or let the car
wash do it?
car wash do it

12. Last fast food you ate?
mcD.laz nite ngn eisya,kak huda n naimah

13. Where were you last week at this
time?
in the car on the way blek joho n i cried along the way

15. When is the last time you ran?
be je td.rushing anta esemen

16. What's the last sporting event you
watched?
futsal laz 2 nites ngn dak2 kliuc

17. What is your favorite subject
math

18. Your dream vacation?
china,japan

19. Last person's house you were in?
my house in joho

20. How old are you?
20

21. Are you in love?
yes but im very sad of luv now...

22. do u miss someone?
of coz!!!really2 miz u afiq

23. Last play you saw?
ntah.x ingt

24. What are your plans for tonight?
bukak pose ngn eisya kat sirah then pi meeting

25. Who is the last person you sent a
message to?
mama/adik.lupe lak

26. Ever go to a camp?
yup.slalu sgt kot

27. Have you dumped someone?
kot

28. What do you want to know about the
future?
ntah.x de prasaan

29. Are you wearing any perfume or
cologne?
no...x nah pki perfume.original smell.haha

30. Are you hungry
yup.x saba nk buke

31. Do you collect anything?
yes...my clothes n pants

32. Last time you got stopped by a cop or
pulled over?
laz year mase raye

33. Have you ever drank your soda from a
straw?
ha'a

34. How do you like your drinks?
panas kot

35. Do you like hot sauce?
yup

36. Last time you took a shower?
kol 12 lebe td

37. Do you need to do laundry?
yup

38. Are you someone's best friend?
yeh...eisya

39. Are you sweet?
hihi...thts wat i always heard(prasan)

40. what is your wiSh??
i hope me n afiq will be happy 2gether again...:(

survey 3

oleh krane bosan yg teamat cipan.....
aku mengepost survey lg...


1.DON'T TAKE IT IF YOU'RE GOINGTO LIE. hehe.x jugak

2.WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? white giordano

3. WOULD YOU KISS ANYONE ON YOURFRIEND'S LIST? yup.my adik je

4. DO YOU HAVE "A THING" FOR ANYONE ONYOUR FRIENDS list? thing ape?

5. HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR LIST DO YOUKNOW IN REAL LIFE? 50 kot

6. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT TO HAVE? seminimum yg bole...max pon 2.haha

7. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITHBOTH YOUR PARENTS? yup...we like frends

8. WHAT NAME WOULD YOU WANT TO HAVEBESIDES THE ONE YOU HAVE? ntah.x de prasaan

9. WOULD YOU EVER MAKE awt WITHSOMEONE OF THE SAME SeX? ha?

10. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST B-DAY? celebrate ngn dak2 mmu-girlz ek:P

11. WHAT'S YOUR CURRENT RINGTONE ONYOUR PHONE? i always beep

12. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP TODAY? 11.oo am

13. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHTTWO NIGHTS AGO? ikut adik tgk dak2 kliuc futsal.hehe

14. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED? hm ntah

15. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TODO? bli brg2 pc...

16. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM? on monday morning

17. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOUCOULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF? many things :(

18. IF YOU HAD 300,000 DOLLARS... WHAT 5THINGS WOULD YOU DO WITH IT?? buy a car...a house...give my parent...shopping gle2...sponsor adik2

19. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN AT YOURCURRENT JOB? job? x da kot

20. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO TOM? haha.x beminat

21. WHAT COLOR UNDERWEAR ARE YOUWEARING? biarlah rahsia

22. LAST THING YOU ATE? honeydue

23. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE MONTH? hm month of holiday.haha

24. YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MONTH? month of sem

25. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHINGYOU BORROWED FROM ANYONE? x de kot

26. WHO IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES RIGHTNOW? x de sape

27. MOST VISITED WEBPAGE? myspace,frenster,my blog,cyber tracker

28. LAST PERSON YOU TEXT MESSAGED? eisya

29. LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU SAD. afiq or myself maybe

30. WOULD YOU TAKE A BULLET FOR YOURBEST FRIEND? yup

31. FAVORITE KIND OF DRINK(S)? teh o panas

35. IF SOMEONE YOU HATED DIED, WHATWOULD YOU DO? juz forgive him

36. HAVE YOU KISSED SOMEONE IN THE PASTWEEK? ya...

37. LAST EX? afiq?i really2 hope not will be my ex...

38. IF YOU COULD TELL YOUR LAST EXSOMETHING WHAT WOULD YOU SAY? sorry 5x n i dont really meant to hurt u:(

39. WHAT DO YOU THINK YOUR EX WOULDSAY TO YOU? he wud say nothing

41. WOULD YOU GET BACK WITH YOUR LASTEX IF YOU COULD? if afiq...yez!!!

42. HOW MANY PIERCINGS DO YOU HAVE? 2...

43. TATTOOS? x mo la...

44. IF YOU COULD GET PIERCED ANYWHEREWHERE WOULD YOU GET IT DONE? bawah bibir or kening.style siot.haha

45. WHAT ARE YOU MOST SCARED OF? Allah

46. DO YOU LIKE BEING ON STAGE WITH ABUNCH OF PEEOPLE WATCHING YOU? no.x suke kot :p

47. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU WENT TOTHE MALL? yesterday...

52. WHAT KIND OF CELL PHONE DO YOUHAVE? nokia flip 6060

july...

ari ni kamis.besamaan dgn 2 rejab dan 27 ari bulan in july....oh!!sunggo x sangke genap semnggu aku dclashkan oleh sang kekasih.kekasih lg ke?oh ya.mmg benar. aku dilepaskan tp tidak aku yg melepaskan...mengikut akta cerai-merai ni kene pesetujuan 2 pihak.haha...
haih...
bole ke aku menahan...?
hm ntah...
eh jap...aku ingin trus menaip tp otak x mengizinkan karna suda dipenuhi dgn kate2 virtools...
haruskah ku meluahkan rase,prasaan ku dilambangkan ayat2 virtools?
oh x!!!
sbbnye aku sendri pon nnt x fhm...
tp pecaye la...walo ape pon yg tejadi...
x mungkin aku mencari ganti...
nggak mungkin aku mlupakan mu...
ku x menanti tp ku akan mencari....

2 be continued:P

july...

:(

hm...
rindu afiq...
rindu sgt...
:(

kengang terindah-samson

aku yang lemah tanpamu
aku yang rentan karena
cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
yang mampu menyanjungku

selama mata terbuka
sampai jantung tak berdetak
selama itu pun
aku mampu tuk mengenangmu

darimu, kutemukan hidupku
bagiku, kau lah cinta sejati

bila yang tertulis untukku
adalah yang terbaik untukmu
kan kujadikan kau kenangan
yang terindah dalam hidupku
namun takkan mudah bagiku
meninggalkan jejak hidupku
yang telah terukir abadi
sebagai kenangan yang terindah

-dedicated this song to my luvly afiq....

survey...

1. Are you wearing a necklace?
= no

2. Does your computer have a mouse?
= ha’a

4. Do you like school?
= yup n I really missing it

5. What color is your shirt?
= now? In coklet

6. How many bedrooms do you have in your
house?
= stay kat hostel

7. What song are you listening to?
= beyonce Knowles feat slim thug- check on it

8. What was the last mall you've been to?
= summit bp

9. Are you alone?
= now? Yup…rumate 2-2 klua

10. Do you have any older siblings?
= x. im the eldest

11. What is the last thing you ate?
= nasi goreng ladna

12. Who was the last person to come over to your
house?
= house? Hm lala kot

13.Who was the last person to call you?
= mama.siang td

14. Who was the last person who texted you?
= ntah x de kot

15. What time is it?
= Now 11.32 pm

16.What should u be doing?
= wat 3D maya

17. Who is the last person you IMed?
= hm naimah kot

18. Did you go out to eat yesterday?
= ha’a ngn membe2 old skool

19. What are you thinking about right now?
= afiq…wat pe gaknye die

20. What color are your pants?
= coklet2 ijo kot

21. What color is your keyboard?
= krim2

22. What do you feel like eating/drinking?
= x de prasaan

23. Are you in college?
= ha’a.lg sethn lebe je nk abes

24. What is the last word you wrote on paper?
= x ingt kot :P

25. Are you bored?
= now? Yes…

26. How many teeth do you have?
= ntah. X de prasaan nk kire

28. Do you wear glasses?
= nope.x beminat

29. What color are your shoes?
= generally black,green,white/pink

31. Last thing you drank?
= air suam kat sirah cafe

34. Who do you love?
= parent,siblings,afiq n frends

35. What are you doing right now?
= answer this survey n listening mp3

37. What are you looking at now?
= screen on the monitor :P

38. What's the last words you said?
= ngantoknye…

39. Do you have lip gloss on?
= ha’a

40. Do you have eyeliner on?
= ha yg ni x.

41. Did you realize there was no question number
36?
= hihi.ha’a x de.x prasan lak.

42. Do you have an injury (cut, bruise, bump, etc.)
anywhere on your body?
= ha’a kat jari klingking.kene piso semlm.hehe

43. Where is your cell phone?
= atas katil

44. Do you have any friends named Robby?
= x pasal je name 2. x glemor.haha

46. Do you have any friends named Nikki?
= pon x.

47. Are you afraid of the dark?
=Yup especially kalo sorang.

48. Did you used to watch "Are you afraid of the
dark?"
= nope

49. Do you like someone right now?
= yup afiq but bkn like lg.syg sgt2….

50. What size shoe are you?
= 6/7