i'd posted this song on my last entry...
those who know bout this song..
surely tau dis song is sang for people who patiently facing their cancer disease..


Song Words by Artist / Band : Various Artists :
Rihanna, Carrie Underwood, Mariah Carey, Beyoncé, Mary J. Blige, Fergie, Sheryl Crow, Melissa Etheridge, Natasha Bedingfield, Miley Cyrus, Leona Lewis, Keyshia Cole, LeAnn Rimes, Ashanti and Ciara
Song Lyrics Title : Just Stand Up! (To Cancer)

Taken from Album : -
Single Released : August 21, 2008
Music Genre : Pop, R&B

All featured singers performed “Just Stand Up” live on the “Stand Up to Cancer” telethon which aired simultaneously on ABC, CBS and NBC on September 5, 2008
For the performance, all the original artists appeared with the addition of Nicole Scherzinger of the Pussycat Dolls filling in for Sheryl Crow, Melissa Etheridge and Leann Rimes

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n now my mama is facing the same situation...
shez got cancer in her rektum..
scope dh...
ct scan pn dh...
result pn dh (but no 1 wana tell me mama in which stage)
dis 28th- major operation (take within 6-8 hours)
6x chemo...
now shez already in hospital since laz sunday..
bcos she really need some rest...
dh bepuluh tahun kot she keep on working..
my parent r very workaholic person...
(but they still awet mude,most of the people x caye same umo mreke)
sentese bekeje3..
bepk3...
dan pnat3
eventho they have their own worker...
they still kje berat3...
but...
mami is a very stronger woman...
shez really dont mind to give her full cooperation wif the DRs...
she dont mind when the nurses,the dr ask her to do wat n wat...
to tahan2 her saket when the dr scope dlm her body by masukkan camera kot from her *** or i donno did sumting like "cekut" ape ntah...
she said saket sgt...but again..die x kesa langsung coz she wanna get well soon...
afterdis, mama agak sukar tok melakukan xtvt2 nye dan kje2 nye..
but lucky that adik dh blek joho tros jage mama n helping her to take care of the cafe...
n my job is habeskan fyp aku secepat mungkin..
n my other subjects..perhaps
n really hope to grade dis year jugak...

o'o...
pale aku pning sebentar...
arus merehat kan pale sat sementelah bape ari ni aku x ckup tido dan rehat...
neway...class 9-6 ari2 really make me tired..
n sumtimes task of multimedia pning pale jugak..
but ok la...
aku hepy je brade d clas...
hepy je maseh lg beade dlm seketraiat...
sbb aku lebe "suke" bz so that aku x bepk bukan2 sgt...
yang pasti i must get A for fyp!!!!
so ape2 pn, my priority is my fyp 1st...
tq...

n today @ 2pm...
me n intan gonna go to shah alam pick up a check for sek@mmu kedah lpas...
sory sbb lewat dpt duit sbb masalah pd JPN...
dan aku se tbe2 die col 8 pg arini pasti sbb PA datuk tu bsing sbb smlm aku col die n ibu ckap sal check tu..
hehe..
klo x mmg berdoass la nk dpt awal2 kan
ni pn dh lewat sebulan ok...
btw..tq lg...
to KDN espeseli...

ooo
lupe je nk ckap ni...
thanx for those yg concern of me...
n mama too...
ur care n concern are highly appreciated...
syg sume...
:*

sumtimes... worried, sadness, tears are good in hiding their expressions

juz stand up

The heart is stronger than you think,
It’s like it can go through anything.
And even when you think it can’t it finds a way to still push on, though

Sometimes you want to run away, Ain’t got the patience for the pain
And if you don’t believe it look into, your heart the beat goes on

I’m tellin’ you that,
Things get better, Through whatever

If you fall, dust it off, don’t let up
Don’t you know you can go be your own miracle

You need to know
If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough,
But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up

Who are we to be..questioning, wondering what is what
Don’t give up…THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

It’s like we all have better days
Problems getting all up in your face
Just because you go through it
Don’t mean it got to take control, no

You ain’t gotta find no hiding place
Because the heart can beat the hate
Don’t wanna let your mind keep playin’ you
And sayin’ you can’t go on

You don’t gotta be a prisoner in your mind
If you fall, dust it off
You can live your life
Let your heart be your guide

you will know that you’re good if you trust in the good
Everything will be alright
Light up the dark, if you follow your heart
And it will get better
Through whatever

You got in now, find it within now


*sigh* :(

juz finish uploading sum of sek@mmu pics..
act x abes upload lg..
sbb aku suda pusing same gamba2 yg ade...
bape kali nye edit..:P
x pe..
will b continue sok...
n sok mlm ade interview...
aiseyyy
1st- telepas kamikustik..
2nd- aku agak mmg x pandai nk interview2 org ni..
huhu...
mayb i will face sum probs of my fyp n sek@mmu pahang..
petindihan date mayb..
tp aku x nk pk skang..
malas nk saket pale...


mlm ni aku tido d blik sendri
1st time dlm tahun delta ni..
mate x mengundang ngantok lg..
adoiyyy
sok klas kol 9
berdoasss aku..

adik called that mama found out a letter of gathering invitation..
that me n adik received from kcik (harun)...
n afiq is 1 of the organiser mayb...
i donno but he is the 1 who signing the letter...
hehe...n mama surely la mara2 kan...
n papa pn x suke..
y? it is bcoz they dont want me to meet afiq lg..
wat they said, they did were true..
aku n adik x leh kate ape..
btol la tu ape mama papa ckap...
so on 30 dis ni..
im not gonna attend the "event" mayb...
why???
it is bcos...
mama papa decision...
n my decision...
not to break the rules n agreement between me n my parent..:(
jd lupekan saja niat ku itu tok melihat afiq...
sekian trime kase


ok...
sebelom tido...

wish liz:-

1.hope mama will get well soon..
(she juz got confirmation from Dr dis morning that it is a cancer in her rektum n mama will be send to muar to scan n operation) perhaps..

2.hope that i can sleep nyenyak2 tonite since 1st time tido blik sendri..

3.hoping that i can finish my study this year.. get A for my fyp(s)

4.hope that me n family sentese dimurahkan rezki n kaye lg..:D

5.a boyfrend mayb...haha giler!!!

nite n syg sume...:*

rindu same kawan ku si picit a.k.a si lembu...

br abes supp simod aku...
ssh ok..
ssh sgt...
aku x tau a ape jd kang...
bedoa je la bia lulus...
tp aku x rase mcm tu..
aduihhhh

mama was comfirmed that she got ketumbuhan inside her rektum...
in 2 weeks akan scan lg...
br bole operation...
lucky that papa ade pencen kad..
n sum1 papa knows there..
so mayb operation bole wat dgn awal n get free kot...

ok
gtg..
sya dh otw amek aku...
x saba mau blek...
hope im not gonna b sad3 kat umah...
its my turn to jage mama lak...
hope she can klua ospital earlier...


daaa...
jmp ari ahad..
got seketariat miting that nite
sory to ncik KP...
x sempat siapkan poster for interview eventho x de la seleceh mane...
i'll be finish it b4 next week...
tq..:P

sumpah aku tgh beperang dgn prasaan...
ntah dpt tido nyenyak x mlm ni..
bukan takot kan esemen...
tp mama..
she was admitted this morning...
pasaan aku x tau gundah gulane ke..
gelore jiwe ke..
berombak ke..
glombang karen ke..
siyes takot!!!
now shes alone waiting for adik arrive from kl...
papa kat umah jage boboy..
n mayb man was not allowed to be there in tha wad..
aku sgt x tenteram mlm ni..
ngn mama kat spital..
ngn adik ngn fatin blek joho memalam...
hadoihhh
dugaan ape skang ni aku xtau...
arrrgghh!!!
sumpah nk nangis..
tp ngah pujuk ati je ni...
klo bole aku blek..
mmg aku dh blek skang ni...
tp memikikan jumaat ni ade supp paper yg tentukan position aku tuk grade ke x tahun ni..
tepakse la aku tggu jumaat br blek...
:((
tlg3!!!!
aku sgt la x bole benafas skang ni
takot ok
:((

i knew adik was crying...
i knew mama was crying too...
when they calling me...
n i knew they knew me crying too..
when i only pretended like notings happen...
no questions..
no concerning words..
coz i dont want them to be more sad...
hopefully notings happen coz mama pnah kne kronik TB when adik n i still kecik2..
hopefully she was juz kne saket sbb telalu pnat...
i knew wat the disease is...
but aku lebe caye pd mama pnat...
really hope she ca get well soon..
n im gonna back home dis friday after exam...
nanite mami...
i will sleep until adik call me n she safely wiff mama at hospital...
sigh :(

today @10 aku suda tepacak d CM...
brekfes nsi lemak pedas n donut..
bercucikan air mineral sejuk..
sedari pg td bgn tido tekak aku kelat2..
idung panas2..
mate berair2..
petande nk diserang virus..
esok fatin akn dihanta pulang ke joho..
esok juge aku akn pulang ke tratak yg dh lame mood aku tgglkan..
bangunan putih biru di atas bukit berindahkan lampu2 putrajaya pd mlmnye..
argh...:((
sumpah x de mud nk blek..
sbb aku kne beperang smule dgn keje2 fyp ku..
juge subjek2 yg aku ketinggalan..
result..smpi ke arini aku x tgk2 lg..
adoiyaiii
sabtu ni aku akan ke mlake wat research tok fyp ku..
bersame2 kekasih dot3...eisya..huhu
dh lame tidak berdating..
tp aku riso klo2 mama x dpt bank in aku duit yg aku perlukan..
ermmm
kesian mama..:(
btw..
aku x decide lg wat yg mane krane klo bole aku nk wat yg simple tp menarik..
bebekalkan pengetahuan yg beberape aku blaja dr LARAS...
aku arus practik kan nye lg tok fyp aku..
o patah blek ke result..
act aku takot simod aku fail..
dgn bemcm2 sbb yg aku cipte sendri..
ok full stop.tgk la cmne nnt..
yg pasti aku nk lulus..aku nk grade tahun ni jugak plizzzz
banyak sgt responsibility aku yg menunggu di lua sane..
parent,family,diri,adik2,juge yg byk membantu aku...
6 bulan ckup singkat tok tros bejuang..
itula yg arus gunekan sebaek mungkin...
mngkn juge jike aku maseh syg kan mmu..
tp bukan lg sbgi student..
wat mase ni
aku letey menjd seorg plajar kot..


ermmm...
doakan la aku berjaye mengikis sgale kemalasan dan ke-enjoy-an ku..
aminnnnnnnnn


hoho...
aku br bace emel mengenai sek@mmu kedah..
ucapan trime kaseh blom lg aku sebarkan pd sekalian komiti..
in'Allah nnt kot...
juge pos mortem yg akan belangsung nek nnt..
adoiyyy..
tbe2 jd takot..
krane aku sendri nmpk kesalahan2 yg ade espeseli kat dri aku sendri..
cumenye yg pasti bukan kesalahan2 komiti krane aku rase komiti2 kali ni tesgt2
la membantu antare 1 same len..
tp aku cuak klo2 mreke yg tensen dan gram dgn aku..:P
maklumla..arahan telalu byk..hehe
neway..
klo sgale kekusutan dr mlutku maaf bangat krane tu sume atas arahan dir..
haha:P
im gonna mis kamu sume yg x henti2 wat aku glak cm nk mati..
n sorry to sum of the people for sum of the mistakes..
pd saye..
ade hikmah nye kami merahsiekan sesuatu itu..
kerane sesuatu itu di luar jangkaan..
walopn agak tekilan..
tp aku lebe pecaye kepade..
kerane kami tlalu gembire
dan tiade cacat celenye sepanjang pogram..
dan itu la kot kesilapan dr segi keselesaan...
maaf sume..
jike ade rezki lebe...
akan di pertimbangkan tok menggantikan blek sgale ketidakselesaan itu...
bg pihak dri aku sendri..
maaf sgt2 jike(act bukan jike tp pasti) ade sesape trase dgn dri ini yg x bape melakukan
sesotu pekare tok kepuasan ati sume..
maaf...
n thnx ncik omar for ur understanding...:)

*ahir2 ni aku slalu teingt afiq blek..
asal ar..
asal klua dr mlut je afiq...
aku sedri x pasti..
kate dh x ingt..
kate benci...
tp name tu juga yg aku sebut2..
:(( huk3...
dh 2 tahun ok..so lupekan..
tahun yg ckup lame tok lupekan sum1..
org yg clash 2-3 mnggu pn still dh bole de pengganti...
hurmmm

khamis-6 nov

sek@mmu kedah

ok...mateku maseh lg brat2 je nk dibuke..tp disbbkan aku mls dok umah sorang2 aku ikut papa ke cafe..

neway...
mlm td aku smpi umah kol 3 sengah pg..
wanna know my journey for these few days...

29th oct- thurs to 1st nov-saturday
at smk mergong alor star

1st nov nite
went to kangar n tido smlm di "villa"

2nd nov- sunday
went to padang besaq..shopping...huhu
-aku,wan n dynat mcm shoing a lot...berdoasss

at 2 betolak ke alor staq lunch kat kedai kak ji...
-sedap noo..tq kak ji

at 5 betolak pulang..

at 9 we stopped for bout 1 hour kat tapah had our dinner n pray...
-i met kak lin ngn pejol there..n thnks blanje aku dunkin donat pejol..huhu

at 12 arrived at mmu..

at 1 betolak pulang ke joho..

at 3 arrived at home...


hoho...im exhauseted
but im really happy for this long journey...
even im quite sad for sumting tht out of expectation...
im still happy n bole glak gile2..wif all those frends n committees


lazly...
thnx a lot to all committees..
kamu sume amat la bekejesame...
amat sgt dgr kate..:P
sory for those arahan..
for tergarang skit ke...
maaf sgt...
im gonna miss kamu sume...
thnx again...
daaaa