its been 6 months we together again...number of 6 is quite skit but for me was like
"6 blan dh!!" mcm x cye..se cm br blan lpas i saw him @ pavi graff jam..cm br blan lpas
kami bek..cm br blan lpas klua same..tau2 o'o 6 mnths already..donno when will me
tell mama papa bout dis...haihhh riso..sumpah..tkot jd lg x berkat..i promised afiq from
month to month..janjinye aku ke afiq when mama blek frm her medical treatment kt jb..
smpi la mama abes her chemo last few weeks pn still i cant tell her bout our relationship
haihhh now i promised afiq (again) to tell mama papa dis coming raye..cmne ni huk3..
siyes tkot...

as the time goes by..afiq really showed how much he love me..walopn terkadangnye
aku agak tersentuh/sensitif..but be wif him makes me feel so comfort..he bullied me
a lot..makes me feel so bad sumtimes..makes me angry, gram..lack of memujuk..he had
a bad mouth too..sumtimes hes x really siyes on wat im talking bout..GARANG..
but still i can laugh n smiles coz of him..afiq

he talks a lot..x so pendiam like dlu3..he storied me a lot of his life..x so rasie2 like b4..
he laughs a lot even im x really know wat so funny of his joke..hehe..hes quite penyabar
mlayan aku yg byk karenah..crewet x tentu pasal ni..hmm all i want is these moments
will b 4ever..terkadangnye aku sgt tkot memikekan future..tkot sjarah beulang..
tkot i'll b the 1 who could b back off again..tkot dis time afiq plak will leave me..tkot
erghhh mcm2 tkot..ok im scared of takdir..who knows..only Allah will help us..keep on
praying ella...

sudah tentunye aku x mau same skali mase diputarkan kembali...klo dlu aku salu pk
klo la dunie bole beputar kembali aku nnk gni..aku nk gtu..namun ape yg aku lalui saat
ini ckup besyukor..x seindah dlu namun x la sepahit mane..seharusnye aku perlu yakin
saat ini pkare lame x mngkn berulag lg..ckup fobia..aku arus ckup yakin menghadap
mama papa yg sentese mau kan yg tebaek buat aku..walo kekadang nye aku ckup tkot
akan menghadapi masalah yg x sanggup ku harungi..namun itu hanye la "preparation"
juge ingatan wat diriku yg tlah melaluinye..lg skali..aku yakin doaku seblom ni..x lah
stiap waktu smayang itu aku menadah juge x la sebanyak mane aku mengharap namun
doa itu makbul..x la aku mendokan jodo dipertemukan namun benar jike afiq itu milik
ku make Allah pulang kan nye kembali pd ku dlm keadaan die yg ckup brubah..
kesyukuran yg amat...aku insan yg bertuah..dan mengharap tuah ini di samping ku
slamanye...aminnnnnnnn

thnx syg for being
my 1st love