sumpah aku tgh beperang dgn prasaan...
ntah dpt tido nyenyak x mlm ni..
bukan takot kan esemen...
tp mama..
she was admitted this morning...
pasaan aku x tau gundah gulane ke..
gelore jiwe ke..
berombak ke..
glombang karen ke..
siyes takot!!!
now shes alone waiting for adik arrive from kl...
papa kat umah jage boboy..
n mayb man was not allowed to be there in tha wad..
aku sgt x tenteram mlm ni..
ngn mama kat spital..
ngn adik ngn fatin blek joho memalam...
hadoihhh
dugaan ape skang ni aku xtau...
arrrgghh!!!
sumpah nk nangis..
tp ngah pujuk ati je ni...
klo bole aku blek..
mmg aku dh blek skang ni...
tp memikikan jumaat ni ade supp paper yg tentukan position aku tuk grade ke x tahun ni..
tepakse la aku tggu jumaat br blek...
:((
tlg3!!!!
aku sgt la x bole benafas skang ni
takot ok
:((

i knew adik was crying...
i knew mama was crying too...
when they calling me...
n i knew they knew me crying too..
when i only pretended like notings happen...
no questions..
no concerning words..
coz i dont want them to be more sad...
hopefully notings happen coz mama pnah kne kronik TB when adik n i still kecik2..
hopefully she was juz kne saket sbb telalu pnat...
i knew wat the disease is...
but aku lebe caye pd mama pnat...
really hope she ca get well soon..
n im gonna back home dis friday after exam...
nanite mami...
i will sleep until adik call me n she safely wiff mama at hospital...
sigh :(